His Only

Lost

I layed there for 20 minutes until the nurse came in.

" Alright your Definitely pregnant"

" Alright c'mon stop playing"

" No your pregnant"

August grinned even more.

" What about an abortion"

" That's Possi-"

" Nah, it's not possible, she not getting an abortion, you carrying my child"

" I'll leave you too to talk"

She left an I glared at August.

" What's wrong with you"

" Why is it, that you don't want to have my child" He semi yelled.

I started crying.

" August, what if you find someone else while I'm pregnant, then I'm left on my own, with no one there for me. I'm not trying to have a child when I'm not ready"

He slipped into bed behind me an I laid on him.

" You know I love you, you don't have to worry about nothing bc I'll always be there, there's no one else for me"

I looked up at him an he kissed me.

" yall ready"

" y'all?"

" You an Cj"

" You mean Mia"

He laughed as he helped me out the bed an to the car. I sat back an put my seatbelt on. We made it onto the highway when a car served right into us.

My head flew back as the airbag hit me. I looked over to see August with his head on the steering wheel. I quickly unbuckled an checked his pulse.

Thank God he had one

I pulled out my phone an dialed 911.

" 9-1-1 what's your emergency"

" I've been in an accident with my boyfriend on Highway I-90."

" Stay calm, does he have a pulse"

" Yeah, he has one"

" Your going to be fine, police are on the way"

I tried to get out but I had a huge cut on my side.

Please don't die
please don't die

I heard sirens approaching, an I was being lifted out of the car. I wrapped my hands around the person as he carried me to the ambulance.

" Is my baby ok"

" Was there another person"

" No I'm pregnant"

I saw August being wheeled into another ambulance.

" I have to go with him" I said wiggling out of his arms

" Calm down, he's going into emergency surgery"

I started crying as he laid me down an lifted my shirt. I flinched, I'm no use to unknown people touching me since my rape.

" Your alright, I won't hurt you"

He patched me up on my side an check the baby's an my vitals.

" The baby's fine, an you are too"

" I need to get to the hospital"

We arrived at the hospital as he helped me into a wheelchair.

" Your suppose to be resting so stay in this chair, I already told the nurse to look after you"

I nodded as he wheeled me into the waiting room. I sat there for hours before the doctor came out.

" I'm sorry he's gone"

I bawled my eyes out as they called Sya to come get me. She came in an hugged me.

" It's ok, I'm here for you"

- Saturday-

I woke up to a now empty bed. It's been 3 days since August died. His funeral was today. I was already 2 weeks pregnant.

I slid out of bed an got my outfit out. Sya decided to move in to help me cope. She now had the guest room.

I pulled out a Black May Dress With My Black heels. I put my hair into a neat pony. I put on a necklace August bought me when we officially got together.

I just stared at it. Everything had his scent. I started crying. I screamed my lungs off an Sya came in.

" You got to be strong, for him an the baby"

" I don't want to be strong, I want August back, it's all my fault he's dead, If I didn't throw up, he would be here, he would be here Sya"

" You can't keep doing this to yourself, August wouldn't want you doing this to yourself an you know it"

I nodded my head an continued to get dressed. I walked down the steps to see Sya ready to go. We arrived 20 minutes later, his family an friends came. Even Myah came with Alina.

I stepped out an walked to the door. It opened revealing a white casket that was open. I sat on the front row, I looked at his body in the black suit.

His mom sat by me an hugged me. She knew I was pregnant an she was excited that we were having a baby.

I stood up an walked to the podium.
I didn't write a speech but his mom asked me to say some words.

I always have an always will continue to love you August. Your my soul mate an I'm almost positive I'll never find someone like you. Your my one an only love an I can't explain how much you mean to me.

I started tearing up as the words left my mouth. His mom grabbed my hand an started talking.

This beautiful strong girl standing before us was all my baby boy could talk about. Even when they weren't together he still talked about her. He loves her an she loves him.

It wasn't my baby's time, but he left a blessing with us. An that's the baby she's carrying.

I swear myah lips flew off her mouth.

His life wasn't lived in vain an I have cherished every moment with him.

- 1 hour later-

We were now at his burial site. I couldn't cope with him being put into the ground, so I stayed in the car.

" Can you take me to Walmart, real quick" I asked the driver

I know this may sound awful, but I haven't been eating lately.

The driver started the car an 12 minutes later we arrived. I hopped put the car an walked inside of Walmart.

I decided on some mike an Ikes with some green tea. During check out time, I saw this guy having trouble with a baby. She was crying an screaming her little lungs out.

I would've to if he's been holding me the wrong way. I walked over to where they were.

" Do you um need help"

" I don't know why she's crying"

" Well you have to hold her head up like this"

I opened my arms as he placed her onto my arms. She stopped an closed her eyes.

" Baby's like affection, just hold her real close to you an hold her head up"

I sat her in the baby carrier that was in the buggie.

" I'm Naomi"

" Thank you, you can call me King"

" Nice to meet you king, an don't forget to hold her right" I walked off an paid for my things.

God please be with me