Dear TEEN-year old SELF

@ Seventeen

Dear Self,

Alam Kong sobrang nalulungkot ka at nasasaktan at this point of your life. I couldn't blame you for it because it wasn't easy.... Sobrang bigat nang nararamdaman mo and you can't even tell anyone about it. For sure, makakarinig ka Ng mga Bagay na makakasakit sa damdamin mo and you can't possibly get out of the situation that quickly. All you have to do right now is stay strong, have the courage and strength to get up and pray. Hindi lahat Ng Oras you will feel the downside of life.... Yung tipong nahihirapan kang i-absorb lahat ng mga pangyayari sa Buhay mo... I couldn't blame you to feel that way. I would like to apologize for allowing you to suffer like this. Sabi nila, may mga bagay na nangyayari sa Buhay para tumatag at maging palaban ka. Every pain that is conquered, adds strength pero minsan kahit saglit maranasan mo rin sana yung teenager ka na pinapagalitan ka ng nanay mo.... Yung pinapa-alalahanan ka sa lahat ng bagay. I know you truly seek your mother's love pero Hindi Kasi teleserye Ang Buhay. We cannot force people to stay in our lives.  We cannot beg for people to give you time and love. Alam mo Kasi kaya madalas broken-hearted ka Kasi kahit bare-minimum lang ng effort ng crush mo tuwang-tuwa ka na. Yung tipong konting kawang-gawa para sa iyo pag-ibig na....  Masaya ka na sa kakarampot na pagmamahal...... Kasi Yun lang Naman Ang natatanggap mo sa iba, at Yun lang din Ang kaya nilang ibigay. Pero minsan alam ko dama mo rin Yung lungkot na halos mamalimos ka ng pagmamahal sa iba. You forgotten to love yourself. Kasi mas pinili mong mahalin Ang iba kaysa sa Sarili mo.... You have truly given them the best love you can ever provide. Kahit walang hinihintay na kapalit, you still give them all you've got. Don't be too harsh on yourself. Hindi Naman masama mahalin mo rin Ang Sarili mo... Na alagaan mo rin Ang Sarili mo. One day, ikaw at ikaw lang din Kasi Ang magiging Daan para maging okay ka ulit. Maibalik Yung saya na ninakaw ng lungkot sayo. Yung mga bagay na nagpapa-alala sayo ng mga masasakit na memories, let them go..... Yung mga bagay na Hindi mo nakamit, mga bagay na nag-fail ka, just try a little harder next time. Hindi mo man Yun nakuha doesn't mean it's no longer worth fighting for it. Need mo lang mag-push.... Need mo lang lumaban para ipagpatuloy Ang nasimulan mo. Don't be fooled by people telling you na Hindi mo kaya..... Na Hindi mo kakayanin