Entry #3

3 1 0
                                    

Tears they fall and I don't know why

These moods I'm in just make me cry

The anger, rage, just all comes out

For no other reason I just scream and shout

Fine one minute, the next I'm breaking

I'm tired of putting on these smiles I'm faking

Doesn't anyone see the pain that I'm in

Why can't someone save me from within

My world is crumbling, fallen at my feet

While I struggle to keep from accepting defeat

I bottle it up just to appear strong

While deep inside I've been weak all along

I can't keep holding on for a hope of tomorrow

When it just keeps bringing my heart more sorrow

So I sit here crying, pathetic, and a mess

Afraid of showing others the emotions I suppress

Afraid they will judge me, belittle what I feel

So I spend my nights alone, trying to ignore it, trying to deal

I don't know who I am anymore, thoughts run deep

My bottled emotions form in nightmares as I try to sleep

I wish I could tell someone and bare what I feel

Who'd still be there to accept me and all I'd reveal

So on my own I handle things

negative comments pull at my strings

raw nerves and open cuts

The smallest remark can drive me nuts

In this nightmare I often drown

Every time I have a breakdown

HUSH, LITTLE BABYWhere stories live. Discover now