Elezia

07

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TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual Harassment, Physical Abuse, Self harm and Suicide.

Elezia's POV

"When I grow up I want to become a Doctor!" That's what I said when I was in kindergarten.

I grew up without a Mom or a Dad. I am an accident child, and it just happened that I was abandoned at a church. That's where I met my aunt.

Tita ang tawag ko sa kanya kahit pa parang ina ko na siya, she didn't want to be called as mom dahil nadala lang naman siya ng awa when she saw me in that church. And my uncle...

Ever since I was 11, my uncle has been harassing me every single day. Hirap akong may pagsabihan dahil sa takot. He's threatening me that he will beat me up and do worse things kapag ipinagsabi ko.

When I reached highschool, I am privileged to study in a private school. That's where I met my circle of friends. After feeling comfortable enough with them, I finally had the courage to tell them what's happening to me inside my home.

"May gusto sana ako i-open sa inyo..."  Napatungo ako dahil sa hiya.

"Sure! We'll hear you out." Bumilog sila na nakapalibot sa akin para pakinggan ang sasabihin ko.

"Every night bago ako matulog, lalo na pag tulog na ang tita ko. My uncle would enter my room. Pinagbawalan kasi nila ko i-lock ang room ko dahil strict sila." Panimula ko. They're still listening so I continued.

"He'd approach me and his hands will... will roam around my body. I said no a lot of times but he insisted. I was so scared, I couldn't scream or cry. I just froze and let him touch me everywhere. Sobrang nasusuka ako sa sarili ko... Sobrang hindi ko na kinakaya." I broke down in front of them. I've been hiding and bottling this up for 7 years.

"Wow, we're sorry that happened to you. But... are you sure hindi mo ginusto?" Nagulat ako sa sinabi ng isa kong kaibigan.

"W-what do you mean? Who would want to be harassed by their own family?" My hands shaked. How could she say that?

"I don't know, maybe you." She started giggling and that made our other friends laugh too.

"I mean she has a point, why would you let him do that to you kung hindi mo ginusto?" Nagtinginan pa sila after saying that.

"I was scared! If you were in my position, hindi ka din makakagalaw dahil sa takot..." Nanginig ang boses ko.

"No, maybe that's why linggo-linggo ay bago ang mga gamit mo? Is he your sugar daddy?" Lalong lumakas ang tawanan nila and it echoed in my ears. I walked out sa sobrang sama ng loob ko, tumutulo ang mga luha ko. I went to comfort room and I stayed inside a cubicle for hours.

Moments later, a different group of girls entered the comfort room. "What the fuck? Legit ba? Mukha pa naman siyang matino? That was so unexpected! Hashtag biglang kapit pala sa mayaman na tito!" A girl said and they all laughed.

"Magpaturo pala tayo paano mang-akit ng sugar daddy!" Dugtong pa nito kaya lalo pang lumakas ang tawanan nila.

"Balita ko pa ay hindi daw niya kadugo ang tito at tita niya! Baka kaya gumagawa ng relasyon sa tito. Grabe, manggagamit at pokpok naman pala." I can hear their gasps as if they figured something out.