I fell in love, but not at first sight. Infatuation is alluring.
The first peek inside of your car seemed to be scars.
Because I know for myself that I can't be with you.
You're already financially stable, while I'm still in doubt.
I choose to deprive the things that I need especially love.
The love that I've been lacking, especially for myself.
I know that you're the ideal man that I've been dreaming of.
The smell of your lips is still there.
The tight grip that I handed such your hair.
The gentleness that you make me feel definitely filled me.
The random talks that we had were too hard for me.
Because I choose not to be interested in you because I'm afraid.
Afraid to lose my own track and just get distracted by you.
I'm glad that you started to share your music taste.
Like the taste of your lips that is not getting out of my head.
I don't know if I made the right choice by not bothering or making the first move.
But I hope that you're not feeling lonely tonight.
Wondering if you're not enough every single night.
I don't know about you, but the way you smile makes me glad.
Despite the opposite expression, that I am making such a poker face.
It's very ironic that I don't make eye contact with you often.
It's kind of weird, but I love how to see you talk about something just to make me feel comfortable.
You also said that it's been a year since your last relationship as well as mine.
Hope you get totally healed and not be afraid to love again, just like my current situation.
The thing that really bothers me is that maybe I just ended up playing with your hands.
I don't know about you, and you don't know about me.
But I just want you to know that I was enchanted to meet you.
You gave me hope that I could meet my ideal man.
My ideal man that I met and read in various books, also I've watched in romantic movies.
The way you open the door and close it for me makes me feel twitterpated.
The permission that you asked makes me feel safe and sound.
I can't get you out of my head seriously, but if you have good intentions towards me,
Maybe I'll give it a try. I'll wait for your initiation again.
Just like you usually ask, " Do you want something to happen?"
Let's take a try, no matter what might happen between us. It is what it is.
