I was at my bf Jaden's house hanging out with him before his after party and it was 5 minutes before he had to go on.
"I should probably get ready for the after party," he says getting off my chest "How do you think it's gonna be like today?" I say sitting up "They're probably gonna ask a few weird questions but nothing too bad" he says grabbing his phone
"You want me to act like I'm not here or not?" I say looking at him
Me and jaden haven't made out relationship public yet so only his and my family know about it
"Just pretend we're hanging out" "ok" I say looking at him. "Okay it's time lemme go set my phone up" he says giving me a long kiss "ok now go" I say playfully pushing him. He goes to his desk and sets up his phone and starts the live.
"What's up guys" he says throwing up 3 fingers
He started reading the chats and some of them were about stuff he likes to do for fun and about his music taste. "Do I have a gf?" He says looking at me laughing I laugh silently "No I don't" jaden says laughing "ok let's add Cece" he says taping on his phone
"What's up," he says throwing up 3 fingers "Omg jaden hii," the girl says getting excited "What's up you got any questions for me?" He says smiling "Um yeah I was wondering if you like girls who play softball?" "Well I really don't care but I like volleyball girls," he says looking at me, I blush and quickly look down.
They talk for a bit and you can see jaden was into the conversation with her He added more fans and a lot of them complimented him and ask him what his type was. "Do you like blonde girls?" A fan asks "Well uh it kinda depends on the person but I'm more of a brunette kinda guy" he says laughing.
I was kinda getting jealous cause the girls he was adding were kinda pretty and they complimented him a lot and he looked like he was sorta interested in them too...
"You look so good with long hair don't cut it," a girl says giggling "ik but I really wanna do itttt" jaden says laughing "Okay but you look so good like this" the girl says smiling at him "Oh thank you you look good too," he says to the girl
That's when I felt all my insecurities coming back, did he really think she looks good? Does he think she's prettier than me? What if he leaves me for her?... I immediately got sad and thought about it, he does get edited with girls he adds to his after party and he gets shipped with fans.
I decided to go home so I started putting on my shoes and grabbing my car keys "ok guys I'm gonna head out since it's almost dinner time but I'll see you guys soon" he says waving at the camera "Where are you going?" He says standing up "I'm gonna go home, my moms probably waiting for me" I say walking towards his door to leave "Can't you just ask to spend the night?" He says grabbing my waist and turning me around "No I'm it's gonna go home"
I say with no expression and removing his arm and try to get out "What's wrong you always spend the night on the weekends?" He says with a confused face "I just wanna go home ok leave me alone!" I say pushing him off me. He went like 2 feet away and looked sad and confused "W-what's wrong did I do something?" He says with tears in his eyes
"I-I-I hate it when your fans flirt with you cause you seem like you like them back, and ik this is bad but insecure jaden, and ik you're gonna leave me for a girl that's 10x prettier than me" I say crying "oh baby why didn't you say anything" he says hugging me "cause I didn't want to know I'm insecure" I say crying into his chest "baby it's okay to feel insecure sometimes everyone does, I felt insecure about my smile since I needed braces. My love your the prettiest girl in the world and there's no other girl that could replace you okay?"
He says holding up my face "Okay?" He says looking at me directly in the eyes "Okay" I say looking at him "Now don't ever think your ugly or not pretty enough cause your beautiful y/n" he says before he kissed me passionately "I love you Jay" I say smiling "I love you more princess" he says smiling before giving me another kiss
