⚠️TW: This chapter contains brief mention of verbal abuse and topics of suicide/suicidal thoughts. If you get uncomfortable reading this, don't read it at all!!! ⚠️
A/n this is a long one
*Luna's POV*
All this week, every time I went to the bathroom, Hannah and her friends always did something to make get a bit hurt. (A/n I'm not going into detail on what they do to her I mean it's a bit obvious) So I make sure Niki doesn't get worried, I just say I'm ok, but I feel he doesn't believe me much. I'm just glad I haven't been in an actual fight yet.
*Niki's POV*
I've been worried for Luna all week. I've been seeing bruises or maybe a cut or two there, and it's been worrying me. I decided when we get back to her house I'll ask her if she's ok.
*Time skip*
When we got back to her house, I decided to ask her the question. "Hey Luna have you been ok? You haven't been acting your face and you look hurt a bit," I said, "Yeah, I'm fine why wouldn't I be," she answered dryly. "Are you sure? I don't want you to be hurt or something," I said, She just rolled her eyes, "Like I already said, I'm fine okay. Now stop pestering me with questions will you!" She said rather annoyed. "I wasn't I was just being a good friend asking if you were ok, because clearly I'm not allowed to be worried for my only friend because they are not acting themselves and has a few bruises," I said getting a bit annoyed. What I got back in response is something I didn't expect from Luna at all. "Let's see, put yourself in my shoes, HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF YOUR FUCKING WHORE OF A MOTHER LEFT YOU FOR SOME SHITTY BOYFRIEND! HUH? DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT FEELS TO BE CALLED INSULTS AND GET HURT FROM HANNAH AND HER LITTLE GANG! HONESTLY HANNAH COULD GO FUCK HERSELF! AND MY SO-CALLED "MOTHER" COULD TOO! I'M PRETTY SURE ITS ILLEGAL FOR A PARENT TO EVEN LEAVE THEIR CHILD LIKE THAT! AND DO YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO BE VERBALLY ABUSED! IT FUCKING SUCKS OKAY! SO IM SORRY THAT I'M BEING MYSELF CAUSE OF ALL THAT SHIT THAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH AND I'M GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW!" Luna screamed at me. I was taken aback at first, but then she started sobbing uncontrollably. Her crying brought me back from my thoughts and I went over to comfort her.
*Luna's POV*
Not only have I been hurt a bit, but I haven't been myself because of this lately. When Niki and I got home, he was asking me if I was alright and I haven't been acting like me lately. I'm sorry but do I have to be happy every fucking second of the day?
Today I think I was just at my breaking point so I really let it all out. "Let's see, put yourself in my shoes, HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF YOUR FUCKING WHORE OF A MOTHER LEFT YOU FOR SOME SHITTY BOYFRIEND! HUH? DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT FEELS TO BE CALLED INSULTS AND GET HURT FROM HANNAH AND HER LITTLE GANG! HONESTLY HANNAH COULD GO FUCK HERSELF! AND MY SO-CALLED "MOTHER" COULD TOO! I'M PRETTY SURE ITS ILLEGAL FOR A PARENT TO EVEN LEAVE THEIR CHILD LIKE THAT! AND DO YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO BE VERBALLY ABUSED! IT FUCKING SUCKS OKAY! SO IM SORRY THAT I'M BEING MYSELF CAUSE OF ALL THAT SHIT THAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH AND I'M GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW!" I screamed at him. Was I bit harsh? Yes. Did I care at the moment? Hell no.
After my rant, I started sobbing uncontrollably. I just couldn't handle it anymore. Niki came over to me and pulled me into a hug. We sat down on my bed him still hugging me tightly not once letting go as I cried into his shoulder.
He just rubbed my back up and down and whispered a string of apologies to me. "Luna I'm so sorry, I didn't know you go through all of that," he whispered to me. Just his comforting words he said to me was enough to make cry even harder. Just all of this I've been through makes me wanna jump off a tall building which I have contemplated doing many times, but something keeps stopping me from doing it.
I have no idea why I asked this because I obviously know the answer would be no but I did anyways. "Niki?" I finally spoke up, "Yes?" He replied, "D-Do you think I sh- should kill my- myself?" I asked, I felt him hug me even tighter. "No! Of course not! Luna listen to me, even when things are at the lowest point in your life, killing yourself is never an option, it doesn't make things any better," He told me, "Ok, please don't be mad but i have contemplated killing myself many times but something keeps stopping me so that's why I haven't," I said quietly, "I'm not mad but please don't do it and I'm glad you haven't done that to yourself," he said.
*Niki's POV*
Hearing her say those words to me made hug her tighter and was enough to bring tears to my own eyes. I held them back because I wanted to be strong for her. "No! Of course not! Luna listen to me, even when things are at the lowest point in your life, killing yourself is never an option, it doesn't make things any better," I told her, "Ok, please don't be mad but i have contemplated killing myself many times but something keeps stopping me so that's why I haven't," she said quietly. It made my heart break more that she has wanted to do it before many times but I felt a bit better that she knows something is stopping her. And of course I'm not gonna be mad her, and yelling is not necessary right now. "I'm not mad but please don't do it and I'm glad you haven't done that to yourself," I assured her. Since we are letting things out that we are clearly not telling anyone, I decided to tell her something I've been hiding from her.
"Luna, I kinda know how you feel," I said, "Oh? What do you mean?" she replied, "My parents have been going on either getaways of just the two of them or some sort of business trips, they never have really paid attention to me throughout my life, they are on a business trip right now overseas so thats why ik staying with you," I said, saying that all made me feel better cause I got it all off my chest. "Oh my God Niki I'm so sorry, I didn't know you go through that, if you don't mind me asking, why didn't you live with other family members or friends?" She asked quietly, "Well, it's because they are either dead, barely close with them, or they do bad stuff like being a criminal or something like that, and with friends, I didn't have any, I just learned to get used to it," I answered her, "Oh, like I said I feel so bad for you now I feel even worse for screaming at you because you do know what it's like to lose family, and you also know what it's like to have no friends," She said, voice cracking as if she's about to cry again.
*Luna's POV*
Hearing Niki tell me about what happened to his family and that he doesn't have any made me really upset. I feel like shit for screaming at him now. Ugh, where's a hole I can go crawl into? I was feeling a bit tired so I asked if we could spend the night chilling/cuddling and I'm so happy he agreed with that. Soon enough, we fell asleep in each other's arms grateful to have each other.
*Niki's POV*
I'm agreed to just cuddling rest of the day so we did and fell asleep in each other's arms. I'm so grateful to have her.
A/n: Remember don't be afraid to reach out to an adult or trusted person if you are having thoughts about ending your life or if you are going through something! <3 Have a good day/night! Also I think this is the longest chapter I've ever wrote!
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