19. What it kills to be a kid once again

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*Luna's POV*

Sometimes my mental health is really good some weeks and other times it's absolute shit. Which is what I'm feeling like right now isn't that exciting!!! 🤗😁😁😁😁

Sarcasm. My best friend. Well, Niki is too.

Anyway, I'm so used to be mental health being low a lot is that I'm so used for no one caring for me is that I just hide it because no cares for me at all.

Only one person cares for me in this world and I don't know what I would do without him. But the sad thing is, I feel like I'm distancing myself from him because I feel like shit. I think it's because I don't wanna be a burden, or annoying. It's fine though, I'm used to it I'll just hide it like usual, nothing new.

*Time skip*

I decided to go up to the roof of that building I normally go to. I think I need to clear my mind from my thoughts I'm having.

It was a cool night, but not too chilly. I took in a deep inhale and closed my eyes listening to the city sounds below me.

*flashback*

10 years ago

It was summertime, I was a little 7 year old about to start 3rd grade, I was outside with my parents at the park having so much fun.  "Mommy! Daddy!" Watch me go down the slide!!!!" I yelled excitedly, I then went down the slide, "WEEEEEEEEEE!!!" I screamed.

I remember it was a big deal for me to go down the slide because I was afraid of heights. "Good job kiddo! Mom and I are so proud of you!" My dad said happily, soon after that it was time to go which I was sad about but I'll be back again tomorrow probably! As long as the weather isn't bad.

*Present Day*

I opened my eyes, a single tear rolling down my cheek. I haven't been to that park since then and that was the day before everything happened. Ugh. I shouldn't be crying over this it happened 10 years ago, get over it Luna.

But I can't stop gently crying

What it kills to be a kid once again.

A/n Heloooooo!! Hope you all are having a good day/night! Are you excited for Christmas if you celebrate it??

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