!ANGST LOTS OF IT SOS.
Two boys sat in a room, protected by silence that held high, surrounding the two. ZIP a suitcase, zipping up, it was time Fyodor to go home. "So soon? Why can't you stay my love! You could live here with me and Sigma.." The boy frowned, his white hair let loose, without a braid keeping it in tact. Fyodor trembled in his words almost as if considering his request. "y-you know my parents." Fyodor looked down at his suitcase, filling it with his lame grey and black clothes. He sighed then looked at Nikolai, releasing his fingers from his suitcase, shifting his body towards Nikolai completely. "You know I love you dear" It looked as if Fyodor wanted to cry, the poor boy doesn't cry often, he never got the chance to. A tear rolled down his face, cupping Nikolai's hands with his own, even though Nikolai's hands were 10x larger than his own. "Will you visit us?" Nikolai concerned and let down, in deep concern. "Of course my dear, you can come visit me, through my window" Fyodor giggled. Nikolai lightly punched Fyodor, butthurt about the situation. "But I cannot kiss you, hug you or do anything for days how am I supposed to live with myself! I might just die!?" Nikolai overexaggerated and pouted. "Ugh-" Fyodor grunted "You will live, what is the worst that can go wrong my love" Little did Fyodor know, everything goes wrong. Nikolai couldn't help himself, he got full of his emotions without affection, he wanted Fyodor there forever, without him who would Nikolai be? Nikolai would not even live up to being here, he'd be dead 4 years, 8 months, and 27 days ago. Nikolai kept count of how long it has been since Fyodor stopped him from jumping off that bridge that fatal day, everything would have been tragic. They were friends, destined to be lovers, destined to kiss, hug and Nikolai couldn't stand the fact that nobody was there for him, until he ran into Fyodor that day. Fyodor stopped him from his stupidest actions. Fyodor was apart of Nikolai no matter what, no matter if they stopped talking Fyodor was stuck in the roots of his hair. He loved Fyodor, with all of his heart.
Nikolai fell into Fyodor's chest, a burst of emotions to be let out in the next few seconds. "Dear.." Fyodor's accent extended, but Fyodor ran his fingers through Nikolai's white, long hair, that extended to his torso. Nikolai whimpered and whined, he didn't want Fyodor to go, he finally had Fyodor as his boyfriend, he wanted to get married to him, for him to stay forever. "please don't go Fedya" The boy whined as tears made Fyodor's shirt , once white and pearly, stained with tears. The tears of his loved one, the one he prized the most, was crying into his chest. "You know my parents though my love, they are strict, maybe I can convince them to love you, but it will take time" Fyodor let his body sink in with his lovers curling his body around Nikolai playing with his hair gently.
"They are going to hate me, I am a horrible person, who could fucking love me Fyodor" Nikolai got up, out of his lovers embrace tearing up, wiping his tears as more and more fell out of his eyes, like a water fountain. "Dear, your going to make me cry" Fyodor placed his hand over his heart then a tear fell from his eye. "If they don't love you, I will"
"How am I supposed to know your going to stay, your going to leave just like the rest" Nikolai curled up into a ball, concealing himself. "You know that isn't true" Nikolai kept on crying, eventually pooling back onto Fyodor, he knocked his head over and over against Fyodor's shoulder.
"baby" Fyodor gently whispered.
Nikolai took off his jacket, in overwhelming presence, forgetting that he was wearing a short sleeve, Nikolai wrapped his arms around Fyodor. Nikolai had a problem, one of many. One were not taking his medicine, and two, mistaking his arm for scrap paper. Fyodor looked down, his shirt was bloody. He did not know the cause.
"My love, my shirt is bloody" Fyodor jolted back in concern of where the blood come from, picking his lovers arms off of his body. Realizing something, something crucial.
"Nikolai."
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White Roses (Fyolai Fanfic)
Romance(Smut & Fluff+angst) @fedya_doa on insta (BEAUTIFUL ARTWORK) Fyodor and Nikolai live in Moscow, a smaller part of the city. Fyodor and Nikolai are quite Intimate "friends," Fyodor lives in a traditional Russian household with his parents who are v...
