Sigh, if you know you know :(
Hey Natalie, I wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday and a great day today as always! And I also hope you're doing well and being alright. I know we haven't talked in a while, and I've always had that bad feeling about that, to be honest with you. I wanted to go through everything in one long post, and I hope you might understand where I come from.
When I first met you, I was instantly curious and interested in getting to know you more. And once things started to pick up, I realized how positively I felt when talking to you, being around you, and learning more about you. And at this point, you know how I felt toward you, but the point I wanted to make is that those feelings weren't the main reason I enjoyed talking to you, Natalie. The main reason I felt genuinely happy and always liked talking and spending that time is because I felt that you accepted me and that I felt comfortable being myself and not being judged.
And at this point, I don't remember fully what I said when I confessed to you how I felt inside, but if I didn't explain it then, I'd do it now. Natalie, even if I had that love for you before, if you didn't feel the same way, that wouldn't crush me emotionally and mentally. Because now, I know that I was able to be completely honest with how happy I felt around you and how important you are as a friend and person.
And regardless of how you responded Natalie, I was happy you finally knew how I felt. I didn't say how I felt romantically because I wasn't comfortable enough yet to do that; this was more than enough for me. Being close friends and feeling this way was the most important thing for me, and I was willing to put aside any romantic feelings I had for you. As cliche, as it is, enjoying the memories I still remember helps keep me sane and look back at our friendship with happiness.
Even though it's clear that we aren't close anymore, and it feels like we're strangers again, along with the feeling that you're just a ship I pass on summer nights now, I hope you understand why you were and are so special to me still... I hope you remember the times and moments we had that meant a lot to me and it still does today. And most importantly, I hope you felt a similar way as well at least back then :(
Again, have a happy birthday Natalie; I wish you all the best as always and enjoy your day! Always looking forward to seeing you even if things have changed between us :(
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RomantikGrant is a 17-year-old teenager, who just landed his first job at a retail store. He's always been more reserved and laid back and is more of an introvert. He's never been much into love even at a younger age, then he meets Natalie while training fo...
