TW: miscarriage
I start running, it feels like I am in a bubble, I don't hear anything, I just run, I run ignoring everything and everyone. Mechanics and Marshalls try to stop me but I push them away, I have only one thing on my mind: I need to find Lewis, I need to see him. I run to the pit entry, cars are coming in because of the red flag but I keep running, I run against them. George was P3 so he entered the pit lane as first, I didn't notice him but he noticed me, he parks roughly under the podium and comes off the car.
I am almost at the end of the pit entry, I turn right to exit on track when someone grabs my waist and stops me.
"Lasciami! Lasciami! Lasciami!" [Get off me]
"Isabelle, it's me, it's me, it's George!He is out! He is safe!"
I turn around and look at him, his eyes are wide open "is he? Is he?"
"Yes, he is safe, he is out of the car"
I start crying and bury my face in George's chest, he holds me tight "you freaked me out, you were running with cars coming, what the hell were you thinking?"
I am not listening him, I keep hearing his words "he is out, he is safe"
"Isabelle, you are shaking, please let's go somewhere safer" George pushes me back to the pit lane, I don't resist him, I move like a robot, he leads me to one of the conference room in the FIA offices, as we walk there he keeps my face hidden with his body, I look up just once and the screen is giving the replay of the incident, if they show it it means they are safe usually, but that's not enough for me right now, I need to see Lewis.
"He will be here soon, Isabelle" George sits me down on a chair, I let my body relaxes on it.
"He is safe" I repeat looking at him more like a statement than a question.
"Yes, he is" George is sited on the floor next to me, it was a though race and he is exhausted.
"He is out"
"Isabelle!" Carlos enters the room, the helmet still in his hand "are you ok? I saw you running in the pit lane"
"Carlos" I look at him "Lewis?"
"He is alright, some bruises, he will be here soon. But are you ok?"
"He will be here soon" I repeat and look at the British driver next to me.
"She is still in shock" says George to Carlos "she keeps repeating things"
"He is fine, Isabelle, I saw him while I was coming here, you don't have to worry about it"
I don't answer, I don't believe it if I don't see him, I look at my hands, I am still shaking.
In a moment, I feel a cramp, one of the most hurtful cramp I ever had, I get up and walk to see if it passes, my legs are shaking.
"Isabelle..." George is staring at me "you, you have blood on your legs"
I paralyse, I thought it was some kind of reflex for the stress, not only for tonight, it has been a hell in the last months but if there is blood... "no, no, no"
Carlos is looking at me in disbelief, he realises it as a tear runs down his face "no, no, the baby"
"What baby?" George looks to Carlos, he stands up immediately and grabs his arm "what are you talking about? What baby? Isabelle?"
"She is pregnant" he says running to me and grabs me, my legs are starting to give up.
"No, no, no" I repeat touching my belly, my eyes full of tears as I look at my Spanish friend.
"Oh my God, Isabelle, I am so sorry, what, oh my God"
"Lewis..." my eyes are filled with tears and I am almost begging to Carlos, like he could bring Lewis here.
"Isabelle! I am her, I am-" Lewis enters the room and stops when he realise what is happening, the papers from the medical centre on his hands fall on the floor "no, no, no, what happened?"
He comes to me and I press my face on his chest and say "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry"
"My love, what happened?"
"Our baby... our baby is..." I start crying and he holds me tighter
"It's ok, my love, we will see a doctor, it will be alright"
"We should bring her to the hospital now" says George but neither me or Lewis are listening
"Is it hurting you?" He asks, I look at him his eyes are full of tears too "we need to go to the doctor, can you walk?"
I move my head to say no, I can't find a way to speak I feel no strength, I'm probably about to pass out.
"Ok I will take you"
"No, I will" says George "you are still injured, I'll take her"
"The blood, George"
"That's fine" he says lifting me up, I place my head on his chest and then it's dark.
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