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Sirena

chapter 14

I close my eyes and bite into a rolled up bandage as I pour alcohol over my shoulder, Alex bit me so hard it broke the skin, I can feel my body trembling from the pain as tears threaten to pour out, but I am not sure what I want to cry about, the fact that Alex bit me or the fact that people wants to kill me or maybe just maybe I am a fucking experiment. "He bit you?" Jimin's voice pulls me out of my thoughts. "He is in pain what did you expect?" I ask not sure how I feel at the moment. "Do you need help?" his voice is sweet, but I shove it out of my head and shake my head. "You can tell me the truth" I say opening my eyes, Jimin searches my face for a while before nodding, he takes a seat next to me. "I need you to promise me one thing first" he whispers clearly feeling like shit, but I don't care, he can't try and play the victim card when I am the actual victim. 

"You can't blame yourself for any of this" he adds confusing me I nod waiting for him to finish. "The girl that Alex and Jin framed me for?" he asks looking at the ground for a moment. "Alex killed her because you told him to" he explains looking up at me, I start laughing at his story how did I order Alex to kill someone I don't even know?

"We were engaged Sirena" Jimin snaps, I immediately stop laughing. "I think I would know of I was engaged Jimin, and I think I would know-" "hear him out Sirena" Yoongi's voice cuts me off I nod and wait for him to finish. "The accident you were in as a kid, the one that killed your mom, that's not the reason you can't remember Jin, you were in another one last year" Jimin explains I don't interfere this time. "We met when you were six-teen, Jin introduced us we were love at first sight, you tried hiding how you felt but, you did a horrible job at it. when you turned eight-teen we got engaged, we were a week away from getting married, I started feeling the pressure, so I slept with someone else, you somehow found out and caught us. You phoned Alex in front of me and the blond girl I had an affair with, giving him clear instructions on how to slowly kill the girl making her suffer for a week. But after a week of Alex forcing himself on her, you decided she can't die yet. You expanded it to a month, making it clear to us all that if anyone tries to interfere, they would be locked up for the crime Alex was busy committing"

"no one tried to interfere, we all know you are ruthless especially when it came to me, you fucked up any girl that looked like she was interested in me, you were the dominant one, the one protecting me- all of us, our cartel, you are the one in charge. the day the girl died we got into an argument, you told Alex to kill her and make sure people see him doing it, you also told Jin to frame me" Jimin explained I just nod through the story having a few follows up questions "are you done?" I ask not completely believing his story he nods.

"So first of all, why when I asked my doctor about my mom having more kids he checked for the first time?" I ask crossing my arms over my chest. "Sirena be honest with yourself, you got in that accident when you were seven, you really think your dad did not take you back home to Jin?" Jimin asks rolling his eyes, I nod feeling my chest closing "why would Alex do what I tell him to?" I ask trying my best to prove him wrong. "Alex has been by your side since your six-teen, he has always been loyal to you, his loyalty escalated and made him a brain dead soldier for you, he never questioned you or your decisions, no matter what you needed you knew you could turn to him, that morning with Aprill in the kitchen you really think he would just protect any one like that? when you told him you had a stalker, he was the one to trac him down and kill him without you even knowing because he still thinks he is your soldier to use as you wish, it is like your brain is linked to be honest" Jimin explains in a monotone voice and now my throat is completely closed. "It got to a stage where you did not have to tell him what to do anymore, he just magically knew" he added letting out a sigh 

"How did I get in the accident when we fought? what exactly happened" I whisper as my new reality starts sinking in if what Jimin is saying is true I am a toxic person, is that the worst thing? no. "It rained, you were at home and I got there drunk, I did not know how to cope with the fact that you kept someone and slowly tortured her, when I heard you giving Alex the order to kill her I stepped up and told you it was wrong you should just let her go, you got mad because there was lipstick on my color you went to find the girl I was sleeping with, something happened and you ended up under a truck your car I mean, you managed to drive yourself into a truck" I nod my head slowly as he explains allowing every word to sink in properly. "Wait a minute, you knew I had someone in the basement, yet you still slept around?" I asked looking at him confused, he shifts a bit 

"Princess, I tried telling you I was not sleeping around but you did not believe me" Jimin whispers grabbing my arm, my eyes search his I can see he is desperate for me to believe him. "The lipstick on your shirt?" I ask searching his face for an answer, but he just smiles at me. "Jungkook wore my shirt the previous day, he had a date with a girl, I did not know so I just threw it on" he whispers keeping his eyes locked on mine. "So, you only slept around once?" I ask my voice barely above a whisper.

"Yes" he answers looking into my eyes "Jimin if I was so toxic why did you come back? you could have walked away" I ask my voice barely above a whisper. "Because you are intoxicating Sirena, walking away from you is like walking away from the only thing some one really wants, that's like asking a child why he did not walk out of a candy store without buying anything." he explains running his hand over my arm "It drove me fucking crazy knowing I won't be able to see you every day anymore, you're a drug I can't get enough off. with you there is no such things as limits, boundaries, no hesitation, I can't get enough of you. And there was a time where you felt exactly the same way about me, Princess you're not the only toxic one in this relationship" He explains running his index finger down my jawline sending a shiver down my spine. 

His eyes grow darker as he watches how my body react towards him, but he does not say anything else. "Guys give us a minute" he murmurs keeping his gaze locked on me I can feel the tension between us rising to a dangerous level "Please don't fuck in the kitchen again" Jin says shaking his head. My breath hitches at his words but I try to swallow it quickly. "We won't" Jimin answers the sound of a silent promise hanging around his words. "You want to know something?" Jimin finally spoke as he steps back a bit giving me space to breath, I nod slowly. "You were so needy for me at a time, you just couldn't get enough of me" his voice barely above a whisper as he searches for a reaction I can feel my heart beating faster.

"What do you mean?" I ask my voice trembling. "Kissing, sex, everything a normal couple feels were intensified between us, we could not be without each other" he whispers taking a step towards me. "But I can see things changed for you" he murmured 

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Updated 12/02/2024