when it hurts but it hurts so good

chapter 3 : The Actual Start

I started getting close with Athulya, and yes, it didn’t take too long, but we got a brother and sister feeling in between us.I don’t know why, but one day I suddenly said to her, Athulya, I get my own sister to feel with you." We didn’t even talk for a week, but for real, I got this feeling with her.
On the other hand, I was going for tuition at the start, but I really didn’t want to go. I felt the tuition was boring because I already used to study in school and now again in tuition, but the actual reason was that there were only nerds in tuition, so yeah, no fun! I got a new friend there, and we two were the only 8th graders there. We had so much fun and all. Then days passed and another guy came to our tuition. I thought he was a nerd in the beginning, and I didn’t talk to him. Later, somehow, we got introduced; his name was Bhushith. We were not that close in the beginning, but we became.
Back to it, I started to say Misha pickup lines, and here’s one of them."Are you tired?" I saidNo, why?" she said."Because you are running through my mind and heart, "I said.
I thought she would appreciate me, but she instead said, "I love another person, and you just keep trying for me over and over again and again." I asked, "What do you mean by this?" and she said, "Stop trying so hard; we are just friends for god’s sake" . I became sad. From my point of view, when your crush hurts you, it feels as if the whole world’s burden sat on your shoulders. Bruh, but not gonna lie, old me was too innocent and cringe-literally dude when she was angry on me. I used to spam sorry messages. If I think about it now, I feel like absolute shit.After these things happened, I thought of moving on from her, and I thought it was very easy to do, so I told her that I was going to move on from her and we'd be friends forever. After I said this, she removed me as a friend, but I byhearted her ID, and I again gave her a friend request, which she accepted. I asked her why you removed me as a friend, and she replied,"I thought seeing my name would hurt you."
I got to know she went out with her boy friend, but I directly asked her off.Hey, did you and your boyfriend go out yesterday?""Yeah, it was not actually out; it was for a walk," she said.But I had been avoiding her for a week when I got to know she went out.
I wasn’t talking to Athulya in school either. I have two reasons why I didn’t talk. Firstly, I was loyal to Misha, and I don’t want her to see me talking with other girls, and she will think I am not sincerely loving her. Secondly, I was an introvert. In our school, we had one big event, which was the annual day, and it was going to come soon.My friends were completely confused about whether to talk to me or not. In the group thing starting, I didn’t know Misha was also there in that group, but later I got to know she was also there. Aaryan invited me and Misha to the group on the same day. So yeah, I tried to show myself cool.
Not gonna lie I tried so many times to move on from her, but when I see her, I get lost that minute, and I again fall in love with her.And you know, at that time I was not good at the short forms used in chats, so whenever I and Misha chat, she uses a lot of short forms, but I didn’t know the meaning, so I used to search the short forms on Google and then get to know...
AND FINALLY THE 24TH SEPTEMBER CAME...