Sonnet 18 - E. H.

Ballad of Big Nothing

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Date: Summer 2016

Location: Dublin, Ireland

Song: Ballad of Big Nothing - Elliott Smith

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OPHELIA'S POV:

I won't deny that it's been a little awkward between Elijah and I. I passed his house to leave them, the Hewson's, something I had cooked, because why not? But. Elijah opened the door, and just ran and left the door open. I know, he's gone bonkers. Now, today, I'm going to stop all that nonsensical stupidity we have going on.

I'm calling him to have a talk.

I grabbed my phone and searched for his contact.

Eli Hewson 🎸★

There it is.

I pressed the call button. It rang a few times before someone picked up.

(A/N: italic is the person on the phone/eli, while underlined is Lia)

"Hello, Lia? What do you want from El- AHHHHHH" 

"It just had to be Rob." I thought.

"Oh. Hello?"

"Lia, hey... what brings you to my phone today."

"Could we, um, talk, in person, today?"

"Yea, sure, sure."

A few seconds went silent.

"Where though?"

"Is the park bench where we met good?"

"Sure, yea, I'll text you when rehearsal ends."

"Perfect. Send the boys my greetings"

"Ok. Was that all?"

"Yes. See you."

★ A FEW HOURS LATER ★

A text from Elijah came right through my messages.

Eli Hewson 🎸★

Rehearsal is ending in 5

I'll see you maybe in 10 minutes

Ok.

See you soon

I put on some presentable clothing, and just made my hair into braids and added some mascara to my lashes. It was time to go.

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Location: The park bench

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Once I got there Elijah still wasn't in the park, which I have to say calmed me a bit. I didn't wanted to ruin anything in this friendship, but when shit happens shit happens.

I decided to read a little bit of the book I brought with me, in case I had to wait, like I'm doing right now. I brought "Emma" by Jane Austen. Truly a classic.

★ FIVE MINUTES LATER ★

"Hello." Said Elijah. The guy who has always been there for me. The guy who wasn't afraid to show how much he cared for me. The boy whom I've vigorously and ardently been in love with, since 2 years ago. Yes, in LOVE.

"Hi, Elijah." I spoke right after he said the greeting. "Ah, come sit" I pat the bench I was on, "here."

He sat down just as I said so.

Here goes nothing. "So, you might be asking yourself why I asked you to have some sort of talk. Although I believe you might have some kind of idea..." I sighed. "Why are we being so awkward towards each other? I thought we both felt something... or was I wrong?" I immediately directed my gaze towards his eyes, they had some sort of guilt in them.

"I- I just- I don't know, 'phelia." He ran his hands through his hair. "You have to understand that this is new to m-"

I cut him off. "Don't you think this isn't new to me too!" That was way too harsh; the way I said it. "You weren't the only one who lost something that day."

"I know that, Ophelia. I just don't want to fucking ruin our friendship! Shit, there I fucking said it." He countered, looking away from me.

"I hope you wouldn't believe that I would want to ruin our friendship?!" I was almost going to start crying. I don't like fighting, it makes me vulnerable and sad. "Elijah... why are you running away from this? We won't ruin anything. I wouldn't let it happen." A tear fell from my eye. I started to get overwhelmed. A breathy sob came out of my mouth.

He heard me sob and immediately looked at me "Oh, 'Phelia, I didn't mean to make you cry." He held me in his embrace and gave me a kiss on the forehead. "I'm sorry, my love. I'm sorry for making you feel like this. It was wrong of me to think like that. Fear gets the best of me I guess."

He carefully drew circles around my back. Caressing my skin as soft as one could.

And with that we were finally speaking again. No more awkwardness, no more being uncomfortable. 

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A/N: 

hello! i know i've been M.I.A. for a long time, it's just that junior year is kicking my ass. At least it is ending soon (december!). anyways, the song i chose for the title has literally nothing of relatability to the content of the chapter but i really like the name of that elliott smith song, and i wanted to use it. hope you all enjoyed it! 

- love, vi <3

p.s. if y'all have any suggestions don't be afraid to comment them! 🫶🏼😽