always been you- outer banks jiara fanfic // EDITED

regret. 2

kiara pov:

"jj!!" i scream as he drives out of my distance and i can no longer see him. i take a massive sigh and put my hand on my head. what the hell was that? i know how jj is and how he spirals sometimes and i'm trying to be understanding and patient with him but him calling me a kook was a bit of an unnecessary stretch. i walk away and decide to go to tanny hill to try and find sarah. pope's locked down and i think john b's at the chateau, probably with his dad. i get to tannyhill and see sarah straight away. that was quite quick. "wow, i didn't even have to look"- "shhh" she interrupts me, dragging me away from tannyhill. we walk down the dock and sit down. "sarah what the hell?" i say. "i'm sorry" she says. "it's.. rafe's back" she says. i sigh. "are you joking?" i say. she shakes her head. "are you okay?" she says, looking at me with concern. i shake my head. "i went to jj's to talk to him, and he completely lashed out, he said he was a loser and that i didn't care about him, so i told him i did, then he said he had nothing but i told him i'll help them he called me a kook!" i say. "what?" she says. "yeah! and then he drove off on his motorcycle and i don't know here he is" i say. "god" she says. i nod my head. "hey, don't get yourself worked up about it.. you know he didn't mean it" she says. i nod again. "but i have to tell you something" she says. i look at her. "the cross is coming back. to wilmington, tomorrow night" she says. "what!? does pope know!?" i say. "no. i was gonna tell him at the chateau.." she says. "well you can't, he's on lockdown!" i say. "okay.. well, i'll hit up pope, and you can go tell john b.." she pauses. "and jj?". i sigh but nod, "yeah, yeah i gotta talk to him anyways" "okay" she says, and we both walk up the dock and go out separate ways. when i get to the chateau, there's a sign on the door. i pull it off the door to read it. "found the twinkie.. off with my pops. -jb" it says. i sigh and walk over to the little outdoor shed thingy. i sit on the chair and wait for jj. i know he's gonna come here, since he hasn't seen jb in like 2 days. i sit and wait for hours, and i'm just about to leave when i hear the motorcycle. he pulls up outside the chateau and whistles. "yo! john b!?" he calls. i take a deep breathe. "hey jayj..." i say. he turns around and his face drops when he sees me, which hurts me a little. "john b not here?" he says. "nope" i say. there's an awkward silence between the two of us for a few seconds. i try to think of something to say but jj beats me to it. "watup?" he says, looking down. "uh, rafe is what's up" i say, tucking the plaits at the front of my hair behind my ear. "what do you mean?" he says, looking at me. "he's back on the island" i say. he walks towards me, but goes past me and stands behind me. i turn around. "fantastic" he sighs. "that's not the only thing" i say. "sarah heard him say the cross is coming to wilmington tomorrow night" i say. "wait really?" he says. i nod. "does pope know?" he says. "sarah went to tell him. i came here to tell john b, but looks like he's gone off with his dad" i say, holding the envelope up. he walks over and takes it out of my hand. he chuckles and throws it down. "yeah, right. just when we need him" he says. walking around again. "uh.. jayj"- "wait" he interrupts me. "but if the cross is coming back tomorrow night, we have a chance to get it back. yeah yeah we gotta make a plan, get the others, this isn't over yet ki" he says, walking towards his bike. "hey jayj.." i say, catching up with him. he stops and looks at me. "before we formulate some crazy plan, can we talk?" i say. he sighs. "yeah" he turns himself towards me. "yeah we can talk" he says. "look" i start. "i get it, okay? i know what happened on the boat's gotta freak you out, i mean, it caught me off guard too... but i know your whole life. and how you freak when people get close.. okay i get it. i don't blame you" i say. he looks down. "just please don't ever say that i don't care about you" i say, he looks at me. "and you called me a kook.." i say. "okay.. hold on" he says, holding his hands up. "which is lame" i say. pointing my fingers up. "i know, i know, that was lame" he says. "it's uncalled for" i say. "okay, ki look" he says, putting his hands on my shoulders. i look at him. "you're right" he says, moving his hands off my shoulders. "i flipped. you know how i be" he says. "look. we should just.. form a truce" he says. i smile. i nod and put my hand out for the handshake. "truce" i nod. he puts his hand out and we do the handshake. i smile and look at him, he looks at me back. we hold this stare for quite a few seconds before he puts his hands on the cap on his head. "so how we gonna jack this cross?" he says, walking to his bike. "i don't know" i say, following him. he gets on the bike and pats the bit of seat behind him, looking at me. i widen my eyes and shake my head. "absolutely not" i say. "come on ki" he says. "no way" i say. "kiara, do you seriously think i would let you get on if i thought you were gonna be in danger at all?" he says. i shake my head. "exactly. nothings gonna happen, just keep a hold of me and you'll be fine" he says. i sigh and shake my head. "how do i let you talk me into these things" i say, sitting on the back of the bike. i wrap my arms around his waist. "ready? he says, looking over his shoulder at me. "no" i laugh. "keep tight ahold" he says, starting the bike. "oh god" i say as we start moving.

jj pov:

"yo" pope says. "watup?" i say, as kiara gets off the bike. i get off after her. "where have you guys been?" sarah says. "well, ki wasn't very.. eager to get on the bike" i say. "can you blame me?" kiara laughs. "okay, so. what's the plan?" cleo says. we all go silent. "well, step 1, convince my parents to actually let me go down to wilmington" pope says, "same" kiara says. "well, tomorrow, we can meet at the chateau, see if john b's back, and then we can convince your guys parents" sarah says, pointing too ki and pope. we all nod. "then we'll go to wilmington and figure out what to do when we get there" ki says. "yeah" i say. "okay" pope says. ki walks over to sarah and cleo and they talk, i go to pope. "we good?" i say. pope nods. "jayj, look. i agree with you, i don't want things to be awkward either, but i know how much you like ki. you've always liked her. and i was being selfish, after all this time she may finally like you back and i don't wanna stop that. you deserve to be happy and i'm sorry" he says. i smile and hug him. "thanks bro" i say. "but i don't really know what's going on, i mean. i freaked out, and i called her a kook. i regret it, i wish i could take it back, like she was just trying to help me, comfort and reassure me... but i pushed her away and hurt her feelings. but i don't want anything to happen between us, it would ruin her future. i'm not gonna enough for her bro" i say, sitting down. "you know that's not true" pope says. "i've got nothing pope. no family, no money, no job, i don't even have a house" i say. "you know she doesn't care" pope says. he's right. no matter how low i go, how poor or worthless i get, kiara is always there. she's never given up on me. ever. and i know she never will, that's another reason i'm not good enough for her. i look at her, she's laughing with sarah and cleo. her beautiful smile, her pretty curly hair, her sick outfit.. as per usual. i swear ki has the best style. i'm in love with a girl i could never be with.