Loving you was a losing game (Completed)

Zorozzin Xyxin Vander

I hid when she turned in my direction. I couldn't help blushing as I watched her smooth forehead frown, maybe she felt someone was watching her. She is so beautiful, fucking ethereal.

She's on her way home but I want to follow her to ensure she's safe. I never thought I would see her again. Her gentle look, her innocence but I don't want to see the sadness in her eyes.

I remember the first day I fell in love with her. At that time, I was still young and didn't know anything about love, but I can say that I fell in love with her at first sight. That was the time Xanthan took me with him. Xanthan used to be my friend and he used to take me to church to visit his younger sister.

"Xanthan, what are we doing here? You know that Kazakshan students need us."

"I want to see my sister for a little while longer because I'm not sure if I'll ever see her again."

"What do you mean"

"My dad, he said that the young master of the Axel throne has returned."

I just nodded and kept quiet. It was only a few minutes before people started leaving the church.

"Ayon siya! Ang maganda kong kapatid!" He said with a smile while pointing at something. I followed what it was looking at and I swear it felt like I was paralyzed and nailed to where I was standing. She is the most beautiful woman I have ever seen in my entire life.

She was wearing a petite white dress that accentuated her slight frame. She had sleek black hair, complemented by an innocent smile and captivating brown eyes that held an attractive warmth.

I clutched my heart as it started beating fast. Anong nangyayari sakin?

"I-s she really your sister..." nauutal na sabi ko

"Yes bro, Ganda niya noh. Mahal na mahal ko yang kapatid kong yan. She's tiny, I want to hug her but I can't... not now" bigla lumungkot ang mukha ni xathan. Maybe he just misses her sister. Even if I have such an adorable sister, I'll be sad if I can't hug or even touch her, worse, she doesn't know that Xanthan is his brother

But I don't want her to be my little sister. She is my queen and the one for me.

Para siyang anghel na nilikha para lang sakin.

That was the first time I saw her.

And now that I've seen her again, we're still in a complicated situation. I can't go near her because... I'm shy.

Damn it, being around her makes me question my own emotions. I'm usually known as someone who's stoic and no-nonsense, but when it comes to her, my facade crumbles. She's truly my weakness, and it's both infuriating and exhilarating.

One of the reasons why I can't allow myself to get close to her is the fear that if our superiors find out about this vulnerability, they'll exploit it. They could use it as leverage to manipulate me into doing their bidding, something I can't afford to let happen. Hindi pa ngayon, wala pa akong lakas kalabanin sila.

I won't allow that because the only person I'm willing to follow, to let my guard down for, is... Venus, my amore.

"Hanggang kailan mo ba balak, mag-stalk sakanya, couz." napatingin ako sa likod at nakita ko ang pinsan kong si Colton. He grinned at me while still shaking his head as if I had done something wrong. This fucker.

"None of your business," I said.

"Woah Woah! May gusto na yan sa kapatid mo eh. Masasaktan kalang, bro" I stopped and clenched my fist. Moreover, how can I have her forever if she wants someone else, and worst it is my brother?