Bloody Flowers (solangelo vampire AU)

Will does a romance cliqué and Nico plots a kidnapping (again)

A/N: Hello my friends ❤️ I hope you are having a great day, Ik ik this chapter is kind of predictable but I think it really shows the true colours and personality of the two, so here ya go hope you enjoy. Moderately edited, is this okay? I can get them out sooner with less editing but idk if I lose quality? Lmk please <3

TW: Mention of suicide and death, some bad choices, kidnapping.

I know I messed up.

I know I just let my only source of food go because I felt bad for him.

And maybe for myself as well.

His voice yelling "MONSTER" plays through my head again and again. I hurt him. Bad. He absolutely has a right to hate me, to call me a monster, but it still hurts. It hurts worse than anything ive ever felt before, because it feels like all my ideals and identity being ripped apart.

I guess I thought since I didn't want to hunt, I was morally better than other vampires, that humans would like me, be my friends or something.

Instead, I've traumatized and injured a innocent man.

It's unforgivable, I know it is. I should hate myself, I should stick to what I told Wi... the boy and just let myself die.

I can't though. I can't bring myself to do it. I know I'm an awful person. I know I hurt someone, and will keep hurting people, but I can't bring myself to give up. I can't just let my life end.

Not only because I'll pass on, but because Jules-Albert will as well.

He's linked to my bloodline, so if I die so will he. He's told me many times that he doesn't care anymore, thats he's lived for centuries already, but I can't bring myself to end his life, or my own.

So I'm going to keep on living as selfish as it is. The blonde left about two days ago so I still have a bit less than a month to find another food source. Which unfortunately will not be easy.

Jules and I have been brainstorming all day while he puts together another dart in case we decide on a plan involving one. He doesn't say anything but I know he's disappointed in me for letting the guy go, and he's tired of this conversation.

"At the risk of sounding impolite, Sir, why don't you just get that human back? If he's too much trouble awake we can always drug him while you're feeding." Jules says, carefully dipping the tip of the dart in some foul smelling liquid.

Technically he's right.

That'd be the smartest course of action, but I can't do that. I can't hurt him again. He doesn't deserve that. He didn't do anything.

Although.

If I don't take him back I'll just do the same thing to another person.

Isn't it better to just hurt one person? (Sigh)

"Sir?" I relise I've been zoned out for awhile. I nod.

"Yes. Maybe... Im not sure. I'd be hurting less people, and he'd be unable to tell anyone about us, but I told him I'd let him go. Whatever small amount of trust he has for me will be completely lost."

Jules looks bored.

He doesn't seem to care about humans, which is fair, he has enough to worry about with raising a teenage vampire.

"Sir, he's just meant to be food, why must you care so much what he thinks?" He stands up patting my head gently, and heading towards his room down the hall.