Shackled And Chained But Hopeful

A day or two of sanity

Rameila's POV
For the first in a long while, I recognize the Girl looking back at me in the mirror. I don't like the way how she looked like she had been overtaken by poverty but at least I can see her looking back at me. The bruises above my wrists and ankles aren't helping but at least today am allow off the restraint. Wonder if Gina will come to visit I really missed her.

Am sure she have heard of my progress and she will be excited to see me. Maybe she will even be willing to take me home. I have missed her. And I know she missed me as well.

"Nurse Joy,Nurse Joy", I said jumping as she entered into my room. "Could you please Gina to come and see me please.

"Oh sure I will give them a call, am really surprised she have not been here in a while. For months while you were here, she sat at outside of your door.....praying for you to come around. To come out of your head and come be with her in the real world. But as of last month she just stopped coming and her husband as not been here since."

"Gina has been taking care of me since forever, she deserves a little break. Just please let her know, am ok.....tell her am in the real world but she should hurry because I don't know how long I'll be stay."

"OK Rameila, I tell her but you need to start believing in yourself. If you are not willing to fight the illness, it will always win. It's time you started throwing punches of your own."

"I promise you Nurse Joy.....if you can get Gina here.....I'll fight back with all I got. ....deal?"

"Ok Meila but I will hold you to your words."

The moment Nurse Joy left the room. I threw myself on the bed,quite happy I would get to see my sister.

Mental illness is quite a lonely place. No one understands why you the way you are. You keep wondering why you, why did God allow this to happen to you. What wickedness you did deserving of this. You wished it would just go away. But it won't, once it happens it never resets. Am starting to think the key to beating this illness, any illness is admitting something is wrong with you and accepting treatment.

Flashback begins

" down from there Me Me. It's not safe. Are you trying to kill me."

"Gina quit it, you will get a worry wart. Am perfectly safe."

"A worry what? Do you think this is the worst witch ever. Tell me how is it safe walking on the edge of our balcony like that."

"For heaven sakes am coming to get you."

Gina approached Rameila and stretched out her hand. "Now take it sis and come down, mom and dad isn't here anymore. And I refused to loose you too."

"But G, I feel indestructible"

"well you are not."

"Ok I'll come down if you just shut up about it."

Rameila came down and within an instant grab the centerpiece of the table and hit Gina over the head with it before she she started laughing hysterically. Zack hearing the sound ran out on the balcony to see what was responsible for the sound. He saw Gina on the ground bleeding from her head. Rameila was seated beside her laughing hysterically.

He turn back, ran into the house, grabbed a towel and rest it firmly against Gina's head as he called emergency care from his phone.

"What have you done?", he asked Rameila.

The hysterical laughter ended and it seemed whatever got hold of Rameila minutes ago, had let go of her.

With tears running down her face, she curled up in a ball on the ground. Emergency care came and got Gina and was about to take her to the hospital. When Zack spoke,"the least you can do is pull yourself together, you did this. Now we must go to the hospital."

By the time Gina, got to the hospital she regain consciousness and as she was coming out of it she spoke "Is Me Me ok."

"Look where you are, in a hospital bed. Can you please focus on you for once."

"I will once you tell me where my sister is."

"She is speaking to the hospital's psychiatrist."

"Why. .....why is she doing that. I must get to her."

Gina got up from the bed with wobbly knees. And felt back down into it. She started crying.

"This is unbelievable Gina, your sister is sick, she needs help."

"I will get here help ok but right now she needs me."

As if on que Rameila and psychiatrist enters the room.

"G"

"Me Me"

" You are OK, I thought I lost you."

"Me Me, I ain't never leaving your side, you know that."

"Am just glad you are OK, sis. Really glad. But sis I was told I had to go to rehab."

"For what?"

"For hurting you."

"But am not pressing charges."

"I know sis but am scared, am scared. What happens if the next time, I accidentally kills you. Am sorry but I need to do this for me", said Rameila as she kissed her sister goodbye.

Flashback ends

"I really hope she will wanna see me, I can't do this without her", I said aloud.

"Can't do without who sis", I heard a response from the outside of my door.

"You here, you here.....wait how did you get here. You know you breaking the rules right"

"Me Me, just shut up and open the door and hug me."

Our bodies touched and everything was right in the world.

"So how did you get here?"

"Seemed the security guard owe Nurse Joy a favour."

"That he did", responded Nurse Joy. "Now you gotta go, kiss your sister and come see her the right way tomorrow."

"Awh I will, bye Me Me....tomorrow is only a night away", said Gina has Nurse Joy pushed her out of the room.

Narrator'S POV
Now the real work begins......

Rameila's POV

"What's that G."

"I said, I'll see you tomorrow."

I heard that but I thought I heard something else.