Shackled And Chained But Hopeful

Nurse Joy's accident

Rameila's POV
Eventually my therapist was able to consoled me. She took me up and put me in the front seat of her car. She buckled my seat belt and then she went into the driver's seat.

She was trying to speak to me but I was still deft to any and all sounds. As soon as I saw that she stop speaking, I placed my attention on the road ahead. Not knowing where we were going but was hopeful it was going to be the hospital .

As she pulled into the hospital my hearing started to come back. The very instant she park the car, I jumped out of it and ran directly to the hospital. I ran to the front desk of the emergency room.

"I am looking for Nurse Joy", I said franticly

"She is off duty today."

"No Nurse Joy she was just in am accident and was brought here by a driver."

"Could you please indicate the first and last night of the person you speak of?"

"Joy Gardner", I said.

"Oh yes Doctor is in with here right now. Are you family?", asked the nurse at the front desk.

"Yes,I am."

"Ok please state your name....first and last."

"Rameila, Rameila James."

"Ok Miss James, have a seat here in the waiting room."

I made my way to the waiting room with the Nurse where I sat down to pray. Please Lord let Nurse Joy, be Ok. I can't do this without her. I said.

In came my therapist she sat down beside me and she held on to my hands firmly, as I started shaking my feet.

"Rameila I don't want to have to say this but I want you to understand that this is may not end the way you want it to. Nurse Joy may or may not survive this. "

I covered my ears.

"Did you hear me Rameila?"

"Yes I heard you, it's just difficult listening to both of you at the same time."

My therapist glanced around the room looking to  see who else I could be making references to. She did not see him but I did. I saw her get up and made her way to the nurse at the front desk. Meanwhile in my head screamed a familiar voice say, "you are all alone." "Alone....alone", it continued

It was almost as if I was mentally tune in to a radio station, I didn't want to listen to.

I look up and saw my therapist returned with a Nurse and a doctor.

"Run ", said the voice in my head.

"No, I won't she needs me", I said. All the time not removing my hands from my ears.

They look at each other better looking back at me.

"Are you ok", asked the doctor.

"Not at this moment. He won't shut up", I said.

"Want me to help you with that", he asked.

"Sure", I Said.

I heard he turn to the nurse and yell two different names before saying  STAT.
He sat with me until she returned and he gave me an injection.

Then he asked, "how are you now."

"A bit sleepy", I said and with minutes I was out cold.

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I was in the middle of what I now recognized to be a dream when I felt somebody shaking me. I open my eyes and saw Doctor Richards. He embraced me in a hug and I hugged him back.

"Nurse Joy", I said to him.

"Ssssh I know, I know", he said.

"Do you know if she is ok?"

"I just came out of surgery. She is still in there with several other doctors. I did my part. Now the other specialist are seeing what can be done to help save her life."

I broke into tears as he brought me into another embraced.

"It will be Ok", he said.

"You always saying that", I said to him.

Doctors Richard's POV

"And when I do, I am always right ain't it."

"Yes", she responded as her lips curved up into a smile but it didn't last.

We all just sat there in slience. I am hoping Nurse Joy will actually be alright but it's not looking well at this point. One of her kidneys are completely damage. I had to removed it. With hopes that the other one will do its job efficiently enough. 

The other surgeons are now working, we just got to hope for the best.

Rameila's POV
Several hours have passed. And still there was no news. It was now two hours away from midnight. And I still didn't know if Nurse Joy was ok. Or if I was going to be Ok, if she wasn't.

A doctor approached us ge greet Doctor Richards and then he spoke. "So I assume you all are here for Nurse Joy."

"Yes", I answered.

"Well I have good news and bad news", he said

My heart sunk with the words bad news but atleast there was food news. Just give me a few minutes to get myself together please before you tell me. He looked at Doctor Richards and Doctor Richards nodded to him.

"Ok", he said. I'll return in five minutes.

I got up and I started pacing back and forth I ran several scenarios through my mind with the worst being the doctor telling the bad news was that she didn't survive. With the good news being I would not be given her body for burial because I am not actual  family. I started to panicked again and my chest felt as if something heavy was placed into it. My lungs felt as if someone was squeezing them.

I bend over hoping for a released. I felt Doctor Richards hand on my back. "Calm down", he said. "Just listen to the doctor first before you start to panicked", he continued.

I was sure of two things panicking was necessary and these five minutes were the longest time I ever had to wait in all my life.

I held up my head and I saw the doctor appoarch. Ok I said to myself, this is it. Whether you like it or not. Might as well get it over with.

Word from author
What will it be for Nurse Joy: death or life. Read on and find out.