Toxic love🥀book #1

chapter #15

Lilith's p.o.v

It's the next morning and I'm still sore from lastnight I woke up to Demarco's hand wrapped around my waist

I tried wiggling from out of his grip but he had a strong hold on me and I didn't want to wake him from his sleep but I was a little too late for that

He drew me in closer snuggling his head in the crook of my neck I could feel his morning hood

"I wanna peeee" I said trying to wiggle from his grip

"Stop doing that" he said his morning voice was so Damm hot

"Lemme go" I said he let go of me while a barely managed to reach to the bathroom

I peed brushed my teeth and went back on the bed

I felt really happy about lastnight but their is still a part of me that wishes for Demarco to ask me to be his girlfriend sometimes I just feel like he's playing with me

Could it be that he only wanted my verginity and now that he got it he's gonna leave

I couldn't help but start over thinking

"Wah yah think bout" he asked snapping me out of my thoughts

"Nothing" I said smiling even though that little voice still lingers in my mind

"Wah yuh wah fi breakfast" he asked

"I don't know"

"Stop do that"

"Stop do what" I asked confused

"Almost everytime me ask yuh weh yuh wah fi eat yuh tell me seh yuh nuh know"

"Then weh me fi say" I asked him

He didn't get to respond because his phone started ringing

His phone was on the night stand so I leaned over and passed it for him and just as you thought another female buy this time it's 'Shanae'

He answered the called

"Hello" he said his voice cold and emotion less

"I'm pregnant and it's for you" I heard the other person at the end of the next line say

"Hey bloodclault gyal weh feel like man a ediot any man weh breed yuh yuh try go find dem yer feel me just ago fuck yuh without protection"

I got up off the bed not wanting to hear anything more

Eventhough I'm in pain I managed to take up my clothes from the floor I folded them and put them in the bag that I had I don't feel like staying here any longer so imma leave

I decided imma call a uber to come and pick me the uber driver said he was 5 minutes away so I was extremely happy

I didn't bother telling Demarco I was leaving I just picked up my back and went outside and in less than five minutes the uber was here I got in and told him Goodmorning which he replied to

It didn't take long for me to reach home and the first thing I did when I reached home was go into the shower and scrubbed the living shit out of my body

I felt so used I felt stupid why did I ever think that maybe just maybe I was the only one

But the real question is why can't I ever be enough

Tears started to fall down my cheeks I started to sob real loudly I sat it the bathe with my knees held to my chest and me rocking back and forth

These guys will never understand the meaning of a girl's verginity for me being a vergin was literally the only thing keeping me sane and allowing me to feel like a part of me is their but now I feel nothing but emptiness betrayal and stupidity

I don't know when I fell asleep but I did and guess what Demarco hasn't called to find out where I was so that only means one thing he doesn't care he got what he wanted

I wish him all the best though him baby mother give him bun so till him tun fool

I was always one to isolate myself from the world whenever something is wrong with me at the slightest inconvenience so I decided that I needed a break a break from everyone and everything so I decided that imma delete ig for a bit and whatsapp

It's like I still have to ask myself this question

Why me? Why man so wicked? Matter of fact why Demarco so wicked?

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