State of Mind

7

Marcy's POV:

'Thats not the problem Marcy. It's you ignoring it, You understanding the reason for them to exist isn't the reason why they're staying. Keeping it on hold isn't helping you stay alive.'

"Pshh can you shush I really don't want to listen. I'm drunk and- auuugh...."

I fell in my bad and my face felt hot, I rolled over and held my chest, it's happening again.

'Shit. Damn it Marcy!'

The same things happened, feeling like I'm in a pit of lava, feeling like I'm being stabbed with the fire sword again, major headache, crossed eyed and voices, the shadow figures and torment.

I honestly thought I was getting rid of them but never really cared to, I got up to the restroom to get ready to puke but the mirrors reflection had different ideas

I was my 13 year old self....bloody with the gaping hole in my chest staring at me with blood running down my mouth

I felt it drip down my own chin and wiped....green..blood...off of my face

I felt a throbbing burning sensation on my cheek and also whipped green blood off of it, It re opened?? It's a scar-...

My chest still hurts but I also felt warm liquid run down my stomach.

I took off my shirt and saw orange liquid run from the bloodied gap on my chest and.... Codes

The blood had Codes in it....what the hell-

"AUUUUGHHHGGGHHH!!!! FUCK- SHIT."

Things pierced my skin and I saw the marks of where the armor connected with my body start to spill orange blood

Orange and green blood, what the hell was I pumped with...

I felt like hurling so I ran to the toilet and threw up, when i looked it was green stuff with some glowing to it mixed with the orange glowing codes, i went to wash my mouth but was met with Darcy, it was myself but in the suit and a giant grin plastered on my face

'Marcy! Dont Listen-'

'ԊΣჄჄჄ ⰏѦⱤƇჄჄჄ!!!'

The reflection Jumped out at me and made me flinch but my body was too stiff to actually fall, i felt like the helmet was back on my head and it was tight and hurt my head, not exactly squishing my head but as in giving a major migraine and made me feel suffocated

 'MARCY!'

M̵̫̝̘̮͖̓͌̀̍̕a̶̯̦͇̟̙̒̈́̈̚͝r̵̻̫̙̯͊̅̌̇̍ͅc̷̙̠̘͙̳̈́̑̽͌͝y̷̢̻͈͈̻̽̒̈̔͑!!!

'HEY-'

w̸̢̛͇͈̺̍̓̍̌ͅh̵̨͈̟̫͍̅͌͒̔͝å̷̡͔͓̠̲̀̀̉̅̕†̵̹̰̘̜̫͌͒͂̀͌ ̵̧̤̣̞͖̀͋̔̒̐å̸̘̯̫̱͙̇͗͗̌́r̶̰̟̗͇͕̒̆̀̂̓ê̵̻̝̘̱̒̇̍́̒͜ ̸̹͕̬̜͙̀͋̉̍̕¥̴̻̱͍͙̘̍̒̾̎͘ð̶̘͓̳͖͋͂͂̅̿͜µ̶̨̻̫̙̹̔͐̾͑͘ ̷̹̻̤̗̹̈́͛́͛̚Ð̴̟̯̯̳̽̅̐̃̈́ͅð̸͚̠̼̰̝̇̈͒̅͘ï̶͇̞̯̯̺͛͊̎̒͠ñ̴̨̛̰͚̻̜͑̒̑͠g̵̼̯̳̩͕͒̒̑͑̇?̸̢̢̹̖̯̿̋̓͂̐

"AGHHH SHUT UP!! GET AWAY!"

⅃̶̗͚̣̣̱̉̔͐́̍ĩ̸̛̥̗̩͈̘̐̊͘ƨ̴̥̹̘̜̺͋̇̓́̚Ɉ̷̱̹̙͕̘̔̅̋̕͠ǝ̴͕̩̞̝̲̀̋̐̚͝ņ̶̢̘̖̤͊̇͛͗̋ ̴̖̭̟̬͙̈́͋̎̎͒Ɉ̴͍̰͙̻̰͐̔̊̈́͑ȏ̵͈̠̹̲͍͌͐̏͐ ̴̡̳̻͔̼͂̌̎͌͗m̴̘̟̩̘͇̌͐̀̕̚ǝ̵̢̢̜͍̼͑̉̈͂̈́!!!

ALL THESE DIFFERENT VOICES I CANT THINK, THEYRE YELLING AND SCREAMING! CALLING MY NAME AND I CANT-