State of Mind

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Marcy's POV:

So I did it....I finally explained to Sasha EVERYTHING...

It's nice but I don't feel at ease, there's something Im missing but I can't tell what...

"Hey, why dont we get some Ice cream? There's a place near here if walking distance and it'd be good to get a breath of fresh air"

She held my hand and we got up to get ready, it was pretty chilly for September, October is nearing and what do you know? It'll be November before we know it

Anne should be done with work and I suggested we ask to see if she's up for it, she is and we're going to meet up with her over at the place

Last week's ....Situation...I'm glad it happened cause it's cleared things up and I'm glad I've finally gotten it out, I'm just worried about how Anne would react

I shouldn't tell her at the parlor, not just yet... I'll tell her I will I just can't think of when

The ice cream talk was just about work and drama, the stress and how days have been, Nothing much on my end so I listened to them talk

You know that feeling of Dissociation? Well I do that but these past few days it feels like the feeling has gotten bigger and I'm a different person

It's like I switch to a different personality for a split second and I have a whole closet of them, the switched get longer and Im- I'm aware of what I'm doing it's just like- I'm not doing it but also...doing it? I don't know how to explain it

Just like after we got done with ice cream we walked together back to my place and some people bumped into us

I instantly got defensive and lashed at them, I got stares from Sasha and Anne and asked if I was alright, my head hurt a little after that and just said I was a bit tired

Things got higher from there, A week passed and the events got more frequent whether it was at the store or somewhere public, in the hall to my apartment anything that could piss me off I jump at it

I've also been pretty bold with Sasha, like I don't care who's around I openly flirt and do things I normally wouldn't

More flirtatious and out going, obvious about it too and it's like I'm someone else. It's not like when Darcy takes over, I can feel and experience everything firstly but this it's like watching myself from a different perspective

I've been more tired lately and Sasha have been taking care of me, when she can Anne does and both of them do, They makes sure my hygiene is good and that I eat and drink water, make sure the place is clean and also I sleep some but I mainly lay in bed staring at the ceiling

They have me take a different type of melatonin which helps but I still stay up late, I'm glad they're here with me they take such good care of me

It's weird that I'm finally for once not feeling regret in reforging this relationship, I'm glad I started this new relationship with Sasha and have the support and terror of Anne

She is like a manger for our relationship, keeps dates for anniversary's like when we first got together or when the 2 month hit, she reminded us then got us gifts with some dessert

She spoiled us. Even tho one of those gifts was an envelope with all the "cursed" photos of us

My feelings are finally being recognized and I'm not ignoring them but now that it's happened, I feel something going to happen soon...

When I'm alone and Sasha and Anne are working, I work on the comic panels and kept my manger happy with the results

We all hang out when we can, sometimes it's just me and Sasha, other it's me and Anne, and when I get busy they both hang out