People keep telling me that I should just move on
Let go on from the past you know
The thing is though
It's much easier to say that than it is to actually is to do
Because the thing is
I can't just move on from the guy who sexually harassed
Or the guys who raped me
Or the people who bullied me
Or my old friends who betrayed me
Because they are a big part of who I am
Because the things they did to me are part of who I am
Because I'm stuck with the results of what their actions
I mean like god
How can people even say that
Even the people who know what happened tell me that
Probably because it's me living with the trauma
Or maybe because they have no clue how much I'm suffering
Either way
I don't know how much more I can take
Maybe I should just leave the past in the past
And leave the future in the future
Never to be found out
