That's How We Fell! (ft.Zayn Malik)

Chapter 73

Last chapter! Enjoy! Love you all x
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~Zayn~

I was awake but I didn't want to open my eyes. Last night felt surreal and familiar at the same time.

She fucking told me she loved me. The girl I loved, loved me back and I honestly didn't know if there was a better feeling than it.

It was dream like and after she confessed we kissed and she fell asleep. My smile was wide as I rolled over to reach out for Rachael only to meet with an empty bed. I frowned but slowly sat up and searched for my phone. there was a paper right under my phone. I checked for the time.

11:45 am

I stretched my body and walked over to the bathroom and quickly washed my face and brushed my teeth using a spare tooth brush the hotel had provided us with. Soon I slipped my clothes on, wondering where Ray was.
I walked out of the room to be met with a apologetic looking Casey and Josh.

"Hey!" I greeted walking over to Josh. "Have you seen Ray?"

He nodded and took a piece of paper from his pocket and handed it out to
me. Sure, it was addressed to me and I frowned.

"What-"

"Ray left for London, this morning. She told me to give you this."

A fresh pang of pain hit my chest and I held the paper tighter.

"Was it urgent?"

"No. She left because she said she can't be here anymore. Is everything okay, Zayn?"

I shook my head, looking up to blink my tears away. "No, mate."

I didn't wait for Josh to answer and instead, I spun around and shut the door behind me once I reached Rachael's room. I quickly unfolded the paper and started reading, Ray's scrawny handwriting ready to stab my heart.

Zayn,
I'm such a sap, still sticking to notes but I think notes are personalised. So, I decided to leave you one. I know, I'm horrible for leaving you right after some awesome sex and confessions, but Zayn, just because I told you 'I love you', nothing changed. We are not back together. I still think you deserve better and I want you to fucking move on. This is what is best for the two of us. Im sorry, I'm such a horrible person but this has to be done. Some great mind said, that if you love somebody, you'll let them go. And that's what I'm doing, Zayn. I'm letting you go for something that's the best for you, which definitely is not me because I'm fucking in love with you. I'd do anything for you. I know you told me you didn't want this but I can't live the rest of my life knowing you can do so much better without me. Thanks for teaching me how to fall in love. I love you, Zayn. and I always will. Thanks for letting me touch you like that for one last time. I'd never forget it.
I love you.

-Rachael <3

I threw the paper across the wall, crying my throat out and bawling.

"Fuck you, Rachael! Fuck you for being so fucking dense!" I cried.

"Why are you doing this to me?" I tugged on my hair and letting a scream.

I wiped my tears once I was done with my hysterics and walked over to the bathroom. I washed my face and quickly sprinted out of the room only to bump with Josh.

"Zayn.. Where are you going?"

"I let her go, once and I fucking regretted it. I'm not gonna do it again," I said in a rush bringing a smile on Josh's face.

"You're going back for Rachael?"

I nodded and Josh patted my back. "My sister is fucking crazy to let go of a
man like you. If it were me, I'd just be fucking selfish and fuck you for the rest of my life. She thinks she's a saint.Go man, go get your girl back!"