Loki x reader one shots

Can You Feel My Heart

A/N- somehow i missed this when i was cross posting from tumblr??? dont ask me how i managed that. also im currently working on some new one shots but i have the attention span of a spork

warnings: sad, gorey, death and corpses, i feel like im missing some but thats the gist also this was like the second thing i ever wrote so do be warned that it probably isnt great 

Loki looked over the faces of the corpses, he recognized most of the team laying lifeless in the dust, he didn't see anyone breathing and his heart was racing, he couldn't hear any heartbeats other than his own and no one was moving. tears started coming to his eyes and the first thing he thought of was Steve Rogers. Steve had gotten hurt on a previous mission and wasn't permitted to go on this one, his shield had been severely damaged in an explosion on said mission and tony had planned to start fixing it when he got back. upon thinking of Steve, Loki was teleported to him.

it hadn't been intentional but it was what his subconscious had deemed necessary given the situation. "Loki!" Steve exclaimed, shocked at the puff of green smoke and the six foot god that popped into existence less than five feet away. "C-Captain they need you, I don't know how many are still alive but I don't think its many" Loki huffed out on the verge of tears

"woah, Loki slow down what do you mean you don't think there's many still alive, what happened" Steve was already feeling the anger rise, the one mission they send Loki on and there's casualties. "there was an explosion and I didn't see anyone breathing and I didn't know who to go to and I guess I came here but they need you, I don't know what to do" Loki rushed out in one breath.

Steve had never seen Loki in such obvious distress, he reached for his broken shield deciding that half of one was better than none. every moment of silence was a moment of Steve quietly cursing Loki, it was just now hitting Steve that Bucky had been on this mission. his Bucky had been on this mission and if Loki had been right then there was a fairly high chance that he'd never see his best friend again, this could be the end of the line.

Steve grit his teeth "is there any way you could teleport me to them" Loki was shaking like a leaf, he shook his head "I cant go back, its all my fault" Steve felt as if his teeth would shatter if he clenched his jaw any tighter "No, just me. you're staying here and if you knew what's good for you you'd lock yourself back in that cell"

Loki nodded, putting his hand on the captains shoulder he thought of the battle field, all the corpses and then Steve was out of sight in a puff of green smoke. Loki took a deep breath, still shaking he started walking to his room. he'd been told all his life that in times of need he should just stay out of the way, that he could only do harm and this experience so far had only solidified that.

once he got to his room he grabbed a backpack and started filling it with supplies, he'd entirely forgot about his seidr. his body was on auto pilot, he ended up with basically a first aid kit, a couple changes of clothes and several daggers along with some food, he deemed that good enough for now, worst case scenario he'd sneak back to the compound for more supplies, though he couldn't see that happening.

he knew he couldn't stay, even if everyone was fine and nothing bad happened he knew that this was his fault, that it was his plan that went haywire and that if they'd just taken someone else or had left him back at the compound no one would've gotten hurt. he really couldn't see a way in which everyone walks out alive.

slinging the bag over his shoulder he walks throughout the tower, getting ready to leave and hopefully never come back. he walks past Tony's bar, grabbing Thor's stash of Asgardian liquor. he also grabs one of Tony's burner phones just in case he needs to contact anyone, he almost laughs at himself for thinking he'd contact any of these people if they lived and even if he did contact them he doubted they'd care.