Bondita's Epiphany(Guilt) for Anirudh's Life

Choas in Anidita's hearts ❤️

Bondita POV

I felt like the earth is slipping from my feet...I could not stand on my legs as I felt weak due to the building tension in my muscles. Tears were flowing continuously. My body was shivering, and I couldn't control myself more. So I ran to my room, wiping my tears. I closed the door and my eyes for the time being. I slowly took steps towards the bed with my shaky hands. I managed to sit on the bed. Every scene came in front of me as a flashback of my life by leaning in the bed, Bondita tried to hold her tears, but they dared to flow away from her eyes. She said, "I thought pathi babu was upset with me for something; that's why he shouted at me, but he was right about whatever he told me. He married me to save me from being killed and burnt alive. Then what are all the marriage ritual customs and traditions we did when we married? Is Saptha pathi all fake? Our Marriage is fake. We are husband and wife for namesake. Our Relationship is Artificial. My Relationship with your family is Unreal. I am just a showcase for you, pathi babu or am I some path for your dream to change society? Then who am I to you, pathi babu? I realize now what position I hold in your life. I'll be a special responsibility for you. You have told me I am not an ordinary bondita. I am your special bondita; then who is bondita to you a mere responsibility? Then I'll be your special responsibility. I'll never give trouble pathi babu; never I'll do it. I'll go away from you, from your burden from suffocated life.

Bondita was sobbing silently and murmuring and repeating again and again. She regrets how she used him for her life. Unknowingly she makes him dance around her every time.

The room was dark, and the storm before the calm in her life ate every sweet memory they had shared. The chaos she created in his fate was the dark truth of life, which was unpredictable for her to accept. She was restless....her mind was buzzing...her eyes were burning red due to continuous crying and fighting with her heart, where she was in love with her pathi babu and mind, where she placed herself in the guilt of weigh-in scales for creating a storm in his life because of which he left his love....she was devasted to the extend that her heart was bleeding. Her body was in feeling a burning sensation...

But, most importantly, she was asking him for patni ka darja, not even knowing the meaning in the complete sense...where he didn't accept her as his wife...as his patni.... she was after him to share a room...how can someone force to have the relationships...

She regretted putting him in this situation where he is suffering by having a child in place of his wife...in place of having his children....her doubt, her questions, her tarks all showed her to hate herself...

Why she didn't even think of anything would have happened in their life...the person who always encouraged her to speak.... enabled her to ask questions... the same person was not ready to give answers, and after soo much pressuring, he blurts out his emotions which were hidden maybe from the time they got married....why she didn't think when she came as his child bride, he shouted at her not to call him as pathi babu...everyone was giving glares to her...as she was a child she didn't understand why they were behaving like she is their enemy....but now all got cleared...

She has created a storm in his life which will only go after her departure from his life....yes, this is correct; I should leave him...but not before giving back his life....yes I'll make sure he gets his share of love from his love...

Her world collapsed today....because of all this secret opened she was hurt, got pain, and agony, her childless nature was overpowered by the adult one....where she understood every meaning of their life....what status she holds in his life, and the heart bondita got to know.....she became mature in one night of her truth of marriage life...