Bondita's Epiphany(Guilt) for Anirudh's Life

Sampoorna's change, Anirudh's regret

After confronting family members about the sampoorna issue, everyone retires to their room. Anirudh was the single person looking at his room door and staircase where he could walk around to see his bondita. When he reached, her door wasn't locked, so he pushed a little bit the door only to witness his world lying in bed, up and down. Anirudh's heart pierced, looking at his jeene ki wajah in soulless. He panicked, took her into his arms, and cried by calling her name several times, but as if she hadn't heard anything in her ears.

Bondita looked at him and smiled painfully as if he was a sweet dream that would fade away from her if she got up, pulled him into bed, and cuddled with him. Anirudh, too, didn't say anything. He lay down with her. She hides herself in him only to not feel her misery and pain that won't heal. He felt solace in taking her in his arms. They both drift into sweet sleep as if they are the only ones in this world.

Anirudh's POV
It all happened because of me; nothing would have happened if I hadn't said anything. My beautiful, simple, easy-going life would not have changed into an ugly, complicated, tense life if I had not lost my patience with my bondita and shouted at her. I was disappointed with myself, feeling sad to look at her in this situation, feeling like I failed the life exam. How could I do this to my little angel? My little wife? Why can't I control my anger? I couldn't, as fate always played with my life and made fun of me.

I took her in my arms and hugged her tightly; I couldn't see her this way. My heart is pierced deeply; she looks tired, and her mind is also not working when I called her, she does not respond as if she is in another world. My heart felt soothed when her eyes interlocked with mine painfully, and smiled a bit. I poured the water jug from the table beside the bed into the glass. I made her drink some water; she drank it in numb status. I made her lie down in bed along with me. Yes, you heard it right. I laid beside her to give comfort. But I couldn't forget what bondita told downstairs that she would forgive her sampoorna maa, but what she said shocked me; she won't forget anything. What does that mean? If I ask for an apology from her, she forgives me but won't forget anything. What will happen to me? (anirudh looks at her sleeping figure and caresses her cheeks.) Will you forgive me bondita, but won't forget anything? Will she call me and acknowledge me as birristera babu? shishak babu? pathi babu?

Durga maa, I am so scared about our bond; I didn't deliberately create any havoc in our life, Shotti Durga maa. I was in a situation where everyone pushed me to yell out of our marriage truth. Please help me with this; I want to keep my bondita. I didn't want to lose my love of my life; I mistook my love for saudamini, as she was the only childhood girly friend in my life, and that's why I didn't have any regrets about punishing her or handing her to the police. I don't even have any regrets about marrying my bondita. (anirudh confessed his feelings in a quivering voice, looking at her beautiful face, but there was no glow on her face. Only tears strike and dried lips)

Anirudh's eyes dosed off; feeling her near his chest gave him a soothing feeling from the intensity of pain in the heart decreased. In the morning, he thought he would apologize to her and mend their broken hearts and soul, piercing every moment. But anirudh hardly knows any attempt won't work from the moment of his blasting in anger on her. He took her in a deep hug, fearing to leave her; he ran his fingers in her hair....if he did, she would disappear from him.

On the other hand, sampoorna was sitting in haveli's mandir in front of Durga maa's feet with tearful eyes, feeling guilty about her bad behaviour for the last few months.

Sampoorna's POV
Both (Anirudh and Bondita) of you did so much, but what did I do that took advantage of both of you, and your sasural? I deceived Binoy Babu; I did everything by listening to my mother. Forgive me, Bondita, forgive me, Jamai Babu (Anirudh), (looking up, joining her hands) Forgive me, Saurabh ji. I made a big mistake, significantly hurting your soul. How low I stepped to show my behen bondita was insufficient and unsuitable to be a bahu of Roy Choudhary's. I am regreting a lot, bondita. But today, I have re-born again, like your old sampoorna didi; I will be with you forever, bondita like your sister whether anyone accepts me or not. But I won't let you down. I won't let my behen's life down because I could feel how you talked with me. I don't think you will forgive your pathi babu that easily. Maybe you are not angry with him (Anirudh) but with yourself. I know you will feel guilty about how you crushed his dream, love, and life. I am scared, bondita, how much you had got pain and suffered because of me and his outburst that what you will do, as I couldn't figure it out exactly what you are thinking. I'll support him and you directly or indirectly to unite you both. I'll play a role in bringing back my old chirpy bondita in this family. But I think it will take time to heal you. Today, I am making a promise in front of Durga Maa: I'll return to my old self and always be there for your support. I'll help my son (Anirudh) to mend your heart will conquer you. Make you his forever (said in determination).