Fighting for my life ~ dsmp

10

    "Purpled! There you are," Punz said as he, Sapnap, and Quackity got closer to me and Dream. "We got worried when we couldn't find you."

    "What are you doing with Dream?" Sapnap said as glared at Dream.

    "It's none of your business," I said while rolling my eyes.  Why do they care about me all of a sudden?

    "It is our business.  You're our brother," Sapnap said, now looking at me.  He tried taking a step closer to me but I backed away each step he took. "Why won't you let us help you?  You don't let anyone help you when you need it.  You close yourself off and shut everyone out."

    "I did let you help me," I said. "I let you help me then you left me alone.  I don't need help."

    "You do need help!" Sapnap yelled, obviously getting upset once again at my stubbornness. "You don't have a house anymore and no one ever sees you!  Where are you staying and how are you getting money?  You have to buy stuff to live and you don't have money!"

    "You're freaking him out Sapnap," Puffy said as she walked up from behind my brothers and Quackity.

    "Purpled's a minor and he won't let people help him," Sapnap said as he faced her. "I have every right to be worried about my brother."

    "And that you do," Puffy agreed. "But you don't have the right to freak him out by bombarding him with questions." Puffy was a nice person.  I liked her.  She felt comforting.

    "Then tell him to come live with me and Punz," he said. "Tell him to accept help from others as well."

    "FOR THE LAST TIME SAPNAP," I yelled, finally snapping, "I DON'T NEED YOUR HELP OR PUNZ'S HELP OR ANYONE ELSE'S HELP!  I'VE TAKEN CARE OF MYSELF FOR EIGHT YEARS!  I DON'T NEED ANYONE TO TAKE CARE OF ME!" I turned back to Dream as people started staring at me. "AND FUCK YOU WITH YOUR DUMB ASS DEAL!  I DON'T NEED IT!  SO FUCK YOU," I turned back to everyone else, "FUCK YOU TWO," I yelled at Punz and Sapnap, "AND FUCK YOU!" I yelled at Tommy who was among the crowd of people staring at me.

    My antennas were glowing a bright purple by now and breathing picked up a bit.  I turned on my heels and stormed off out of Las Nevadas with DogChamp behind me.  I cried as I walked around.  I didn't have a set destination but I knew for a fact that I didn't want to be anywhere near anyone.  Not Sapnap, not Punz, not Quackity, not Dream, not Tommy, not even Deo, Boomer, or Walli.

    When I stopped, I was at the edge of L'Manburg.  Why do I keep coming back here?  I felt a pain in my stomach and remembered my wounds.  They probably started bleeding again.  I don't have anything to rebandage them so I guess I'll do it later. 

    I sat down on the edge of the crater that was once L'Manburg and let my legs dangle over it.  DogChamp sat down next to me so I put my head on his shoulder.  His fur helped calm me down and eventually I started crying.  I'm 17, almost 18, and it feels like the world is either against me, trying to manipulate me, or trying to get me to follow its rules and only it's rules.

    "Purpled?" I heard a voice behind me say.  I wiped my eyes quickly then turned to see Puffy standing a few feet away.  "Do you mind if I sit with you?"  I gave her a confused look but motioned for her to sit.  She sat down next to me but left a bit of space between us. 

    "Shouldn't you be at Las Nevadas?" I asked.

    "Yeah but it started to get boring," Puffy said while shrugging.  "Plus gambling isn't really my thing."  I nodded at her statement.  "Do you want to talk about what happened earlier?  You don't have to, it's completely up to you."  I never had someone not pressure me into talking to them.