Forbidden Love || Tom Kaulitz

Raf

"You must try. If she has just been raped, she will need someone to talk to. Who knows what she's going through right now" I heard Laura say before they both went silent.

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Ashley's POV –

I was still refusing to talk to anyone. Tom had told me that we were going to a race tonight, but I really didn't want to go. I had only been discharged from the hospital a couple of days ago and he was already trying to put me in danger. I got up from my seat on the couch and made my way up to Tom's room.

I made it to his room and opened the door, shutting it quietly behind me. Tom was sitting on his bed scrolling through the channels on his tv. "I don't want to go" I said emotionless hoping he would just let me stay home.

"Your wants mean nothing to me" he said snapped as he threw the remote beside him. I was ready to snap but I held in my anger and instead accepted that I had to go. I walked towards the corner of the room and began to rummage through my dresser, trying to find something to wear. I pulled out an outfit and made to way to Tom's bathroom.

I shut the door behind me, being sure to lock it. I placed my clothes down before slowly unclothing myself. I turned towards the large mirror to look at my now naked body that was covered in bruises and scars. I couldn't recognise myself. My once golden-brown skin was washed out and pale, my long red hair was ratty, and my curvy body was now stick and bone. I leant forward to look at the red scar underneath my collar bone. I now had a permanent reminder of that horrible night. I took a deep breath before reaching into the shower and turning it on.

I watched the as the water smacked the shower floor before stepping inside. I let the boiling hot water pour down my body, feeling every part of my body instantly relax. I picked up a loofa and began to scrub at my body but no matter how much I scrubbed I still felt dirty. All the memories from that horrible night flooded my head. I sat down on the shower floor letting the water drown my sorrows.

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I had finally cried all the tears I had left. Stood up and turned the water off, slowly stepping out the shower. I wiped down the steam covered mirror to be met with my appearance once again. I gently ran my fingers across my newly made scar, getting tangled in my thoughts yet again. One final tear rolled down my cheek before I heard a loud knock on the door. I quickly wiped my face with my towel and threw on the clothes I picked out before opening the door to be met with Tom's eyes.

"Were leaving soon" he said as he looked me up and down. I was expecting him to give me a disgusting smirk because of the outfit I was wearing but instead he took once last look in my eyes before turning and walking away. I could tell he was angry from the way he looked into my eyes, but I couldn't care less.

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I was completely silent the whole ride. I couldn't bring myself to say a word to Tom. All I could do was drown in fear and try my best to hide it. Tom only spoke to me a few times, saying things like "you better behave yourself" and "be a good girl for me" but I ignored him every time.

The car soon came to a holt, and I slowly got out seeing a big crowd of people. I stood looking over the car door at the swarm of people before me as the others pulled up. I watched as Mel jumped out of bills car to be met with Lauren. I started to make my way to them before Tom grabbed my arm violently and pulled me into his arms, pressing his lips against mine. I tensed and realised what was happening was pushed him off me.

"What the fuck" I screamed as his face lit up with joy.

"There she is" he said smug as I stormed off to Mel.

I walked towards her, watching as she turned to bill waiting for him to let her leave his side. Bill gave her a slight nod and she came running towards me, giving me a tight squeeze, which made me lose my balance.

"Are you okay?" she asked as she pulled and started to scan my body.

"I'm fine" I replied bluntly.

"What's wrong? What happened?" she asked as she gently moved a piece of hair away from my face.

I immediately broke eye contact and stood staring at the ground. "Nothing" I said trying not to break.

Mel sighed and grabbed my face turning up towards her. "Ashley, I know somethings wrong. We've been best friends for how many years now?" she said with a soft smile.

"Nothing, everything's okay, I'm just doing what I'm told" I said as I grabbed her hands in reassurance, giving her a fake smile. I was too ashamed to admit what happened to me. I knew that if I told her she would lose hope in me. I had to stay strong for the both of us.

"That's how I know something's wrong, you never do what you are told" she said giving my hands a tight squeeze. I was getting overwhelmed. I could feel the tears welling up inside me.

I was seconds away from breaking down before a familiar face caught my eye. It was a man, a man so familiar to me. "So, tell me wh-"she started before realising I was no longer listening "what?" she said turning around to see what I was looking at.

"Mel" I said shaken "That's- ".

"Oh my god" she said looking back to me with worried eyes.

"Raf" I said starting to walk back.

"We have to get Bill" Melissa said as she started frantically searching around for Bill.

I grabbed her face turning it towards mine. "No Melissa this is our chance" I said with a smile of hope slipping upon my face.

"No, this is going to turn out bad Ash" she said worried.

"Please" I pleaded, before noticing Raf walking towards us.

I let go of Mel and ran into Rafs tatted arms. He jumped back and started to stumble. He pushed me off him and grabbed my hair. "You left Chase of dead you slut" he said tightening his grip on my hair before backhanding me across the face.

"Raf please I'm sorry, but you need to help me" I pleaded, his hand still firmly tangled in my hair. A grin began to creep upon his face as we heard Toms footsteps.

"Let her go" he demanded as he made a stop behind me.

"Mmm, I don't think so" he said blanky before his men started to appear from behind him, pulling their guns out and pointing them towards Tom. This cannot be happening again. Raf let go of my hair and quickly pulled me into him, keeping a tight grip on my body.

Tom gave me a quick glance before pulling out his gun and pointing it towards Raf causing his men to instantly start shooting. Everyone started to flee at the sound of the gunshots. it was like Deja vu. Before I knew it Raf was dragging me towards his car. He quickly shoved me inside and slammed the door. I let out a sigh of relief as I watched him make his way to the driver's seat. I was finally getting away. I was so relieved to be out of Tom's hands, but I wasn't all to impressed having to be with chases gang again.

I looked out of the window as we pulled out, trying to spot Tom. I didn't know why but a part of me felt guilty for leaving. I had no idea what happened to him. The car came to a stop as I started to scan through the crowds of people before I saw Tom staring at me with pleading eyes. I took one final look at him before he slowly dropped to the ground holding his shoulder. He had been shot. A wave of emotions flooded my body. All I wanted to do was run over and help him. I went to open the door beside me, before turning to Raf who had a grin across face.

"Where do you think your running off to?" he said sly. I wasn't familiar with this Raf. I tried to form words, but nothing came out. I wanted to get out and hold Tom. I regretted everything. What have I just done?