"Guys! Come quick, help!" Willow yells as I'm strolling along , talking to Gus and Hunter. We turn around and see Willow with Amity in her arms, passed out.
I run over and slowly lower Amity to the floor, resting her head on my lap as I kneel down with her.
"What happened? I ask, looking over at Willow. Her face is scrunched up and she's pacing back and forth with worry while Hunter leans down and checks her for cuts and bruises she may have gotten when we fell.
"She's ok physically, Willow, check her breathing and I'll call 999. Keep her head tilted up and make sure she's still breathing. Gus, see if she has a medical badge or anything in here bag." Hunter says, pulling out his phone. Normally I would hate people being so bossy, but we need it right now.
"Hi, yeah, my friend has collapsed....Yeah she's breathing...No she's so conscious...No, she needs help...We can't find..." He walks off, getting irritated at his phone.
Willow sits down infront of her, speaking to her softly and trying to get her awake, or responsive. "Amity! Amity can you hear me?" Over and over until finally, after what seems like forever she stirs and lifts up her head slightly.
I lean over to see if she's ok and she looks up at me.
"Hey! Are you alright, Am?" I say, as Willow helps Gus re-pack her bag.
"Mhm, just got a bit dizzy. Where's Hunter?" She asks, looking around confused. I stop her from trying to get up, but sit her up slightly.
"You were out for like 5 minutes! Hunter is on the phone to 999 now, getting an ambulance to come and make sure you're okay. Gus, can you go tell him she's awake?" I say, holding her still as she's sways slightly.
She looks panicked at the mention of 999, and I pull her in closer stroking her hair. We hear sirens round the corner and an ambulance screech to a halt.
2 people get out and come over, talking to her as they slowly help her to the van (she insisted she could walk even though we all know full well she can't).
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Amity POV - TW - massive self harm tw, hospitals, medical stuff, panic attacks
I push away from the paramedics as soon as I enter the ambulance. God this is such a fuss. They sit me down and shine torches in my eyes and ask to take my pulse, etc.
The woman, who I think is called Viney, starts to pull up my sleeves before I stop her, eyes wide with panic.
"I'm only checking your pulse, don't worry honey." She says, smiling at me but I can't
She told me that no one could see me, see what I looked like. That is anyone did they would hate me, and judge me and I could never be loved. That I had caused these ugly scars on myself and I'd have to live with this for the rest of my life. And every time I'm reminded of her disappointment, the way she looked down at my arms like I was a naughty toddler who drew on the walls. I'm reminded of the way I sat and sobbed over how she'd never love me, punishing myself for it.
I feel a tear slide down my cheek, and look up, knowing that the paramedic saw it.
"That's okay, love, I'll take your pulse on your neck. Is that okay?" She asks. I nod, and pull back my hair so she can take my pulse.
"Okay, you have no irregularities and you seem to be okay. Have you had a past of this?" She asks, peering at the results like they're wrong.
"Oh, urm, yeah. Sometimes I pass out if I get too anxious, or like think of bad stuff." I say, not wanting to go into detail. This poor lady doesn't need a trauma dump.
"It sounds like a panic attack. It's rare to pass out, but can sometimes happen. I'd go to your doctor, get it checked out. But for now, you're free to go. Stay safe, honey." She says, handing me a card with a helpline on it. "You don't have to fight your battles alone."
Five minutes later, the 2 paramedics and I leave the van and come back. They let me go back with my friends, and tell me that if I ever feel it happening again then I need to sit down, and take some water and try to ground myself. Or to make sure I'm around people who know what to do.
"Thank you so much" says Hunter putting an arm around me trying to steady me. I'm shaky, but only from the encounter in the van. Luz comes up to me other side and wraps an arm around my waist, pulling me in.
"You alright now?" She asks, looking still concerned but a lot better than before.
"Yeah, they told me it was just a panic attack or something. Who knows."I say, trying to brush it off so they don't ask questions.
"I'm so sorry! Did I say something? I was only joking, I'm so so sorry!" Willow says, obviously panicking. I don't blame her, she obviously didn't know, and couldn't have predicted the impact her words had. I quickly comofrt her, unaware of what I'm even saying. The world seems to be blurring around me, like a laggy low quality video game.
All I can feel is the comforting pressure of Luz's arm wrapped tightly around my waist, not letting go as we walk.
God, I know I shouldn't but...I think I'm in love...
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Somehow I manage to guide her to my flat block, and upstairs to my flat. Everyone else has walked on to the cafe ; Luz is the only one with me now, her arm dropping from my waist as I unlock the door.
I'm suddenly very aware of the peeling paint, damp patches, and crappy carpet in the room. I quickly try to cover some of the wrappers, picking up old dishes in an attempt to clean a bit. This is not how I was raised, not how I was taught to act around people.
"Hey, hey, it's okay. My house looks practically the same, Eda never cleans and King makes more mess than everyone else combined." Luz says, laughing but not meanly.
"Sorry. It's not usually this messy, honest." I say in an attempt to save my dignity.
"Even if it is, I'm not gonna judge you. I don't know what you have going on." She says, shrugging and helping me clear up a bit.
"You don't have to do this you know." I say, feeling bad she's here helping me instead of at the cafe with the others.
"I want to help. If your okay with that. If you want me to leave I will." She says, stumbling over her words slightly.
"No." I shock myself with the confidence of my words. "Please stay. I need you"
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Always Forever
RomanceLuz Noceda wants to form a band, but doesn't know how. As a last attempt she makes posters and gets some answers, from a group of teens her age. But her excitement is short lived as she soon figures out she has feelings for more than one member... 3...
