No Going Back: A Marina Story

1: Fanculo, Maya!

"Carina are you serious right now?"

It was 8:30am and Maya had just gotten home after a 24 hour shift. She had left her phone on the bed next to a sleeping Carina when she decided to have a shower, to wash away the soot and stress from her shift.
She stepped out of her steamy heaven and right into the hellfire that was Carina's Italian anger.

"Maya, how many times do i have to ask you? Who is Leah and-" Carina demanded, now moving to climb out of her side of the bed.

Maya cut her off with a laugh "Baby I don't wanna fight with you! Get back in the bed. Please," She gestured towards the bed, praying Carina would calm down enough for her to explain herself.

"Fanculo Maya!" Carina shouted, practically spitting with anger. "How long have you been talking to this girl? While i'm here, your wife! have you-" Carina took a deep breath, the severity of the situation now settling on her.

"Have you slept with her, bambina?"

Maya was silent. Her head hung low as she stood by the dresser, in the middle of a pathetic attempt at getting dressed quickly. She only managed to get on a sports bra and a pair of sweats before Carina asked her..

"Car-"
"Dio mio"

"Carina wait, okay? let me explain, please," Maya pleaded with her wife, glued to the floor as she held her hands up and out towards Carina. A useless attempt to calm her wife.

The first thing Carina did was lob Maya's phone at her. Maya quickly threw her hands up to cover her head, squeezing her eyes shut as her phone flew past her head with a whoosh and slammed against the wall behind her with a thump.

Now Carina was walking towards her, hands flailing. "Non posso credere che mi faresti questo, Maya! quando l'hai fatto eh? sei così disgustoso che mi fai schifo. oh mio Dio, mi fai schifo!" Carina lunges, pushing Maya into the dresser that stands behind her.

"Carina!" She tries, but Carina lunges again, now moving to slap Maya. Without second thought Maya grabs Carina's wrist, twisting it down and holding it by her front, doing the same to the other before her wife goes to strike her again. "Carina stop it! Right now,"

"Let me go!" Writhing under Mayas strong grip. "No Carina! I'm not gonna let you hit me! absolutely not,"

The brunette continues to wrestle Maya, desperate to get out of this grip, to relieve this anger. "Maya let go of me ora!" Angry, hot tears now spilling from her eyes. Maya begins wrestle her wife toward the bed, an attempt to take control of the situation. Maya being significantly stronger, manages to get the back of Carina's knees to hit the bed, causing her to fall backwards into the mattress.

The blonde now straddling her wife's abdomen, practically sitting on top of her stomach, pinning her hands down on the bed one each side of her head. "Baby please listen to me!" Maya now panting after that tussle with her wife.

"No no no. I can't believe you would do this to me Maya. Let go of me!" Carina managed to seethe between sobs.

"Carina it was one time!" Maya screamed, stunning Carina into silence. The only thing left to be heard were her hiccups and Maya's heavy breathing. "It was one time okay? I fucked up and i'm sorry. I-I should've told you right away. Fuck- I shouldn't have even done it, but I was drunk and at joes - alone - after a long shift and she kissed me, and we had sex in my truck."

Carina's face contorted into something horrible, a mix of anguish and disparity. Tears of utter heartbreak spilling out of closed eyes. "Let go of me, Maya" She managed to breathe.

"You're gonna hit-"
"Maya. You're hurting me. Please, please get off of me,"

Maya removed her hands from Carina's immediately, the thought of hurting her wife causing a pang in her chest. She then moved slowly off of her wife's stomach. Carina pushing Maya back and shuffling away from her on the bed. She rest her back against the headboard as Maya stood by her own side of the bed, head hanging in shame.

They stayed in silence for a moment, taking in what had just happened.
Maya cheated on Carina.
Carina Tried to hit Maya

"Carina i'll tell you everything- anything you want to know, okay?" Maya pleaded, her voice thick with regret. "Please just hear me out. I'm begging you to just hear me out,"

Carina hugged her knees to her chest, pressing her lips to her kneecap and staring blankly at the bedroom door. She trembled with anger, trying to wrack her brain to find a reason as to why Maya would do this to her.

Again.

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Hours had passed and carina still hadn't moved. Shock? Heartbreak? Maybe both.
Maya spent the last two hours pacing their bedroom trying to coax Carina out of the catatonic state she was left in.

Now Maya was sat right in front of Carina, crossed legged on the bed with her hands on her wife's knees. "Carina? Baby. Please say something" Maya was beginning to get desperate, wondering if she should call one of Carinas friends to help.
Amelia? No, Teddy, definitely Teddy.

"Fuck! Carina, i'm gonna call Teddy, okay? Then i'll go- i'll leave and you can have the house to yourself. i'll leave, okay?" Maya said, sounding almost erratic. She then stepped out of the room, picking her phone off the floor on the way out. Standing in the kitchen she called Teddy.

"Maya?"

"Teddy? Hi. umm-"

"Hey Maya.. is everything okay?"

"I need you to come to the apartment. Please. Carina and I had a massive fight and now she won't speak, she's been staring at the wall for like three hours- I'm worried- i'm- I'm worried i hurt her-"

"You hurt her? Maya did you hit her? Did you hit-"

"No! No, I didn't hit my wife. I just need you to come and try speak to her please.. Please?"

"Okay. I'm on my way, i'll be there in 10"

In eight minutes Teddy was knocking on the door.  Maya flew from pacing in the kitchen to the front door, startling Teddy as it flew open.

"She's in the room" Maya breathed, her heart beating out of her chest.

"Maya what happened?" Teddy demanded, holding Maya by the forearm, trying to understand what she was getting herself into. Teddy had seen Maya & Carina's relationship at its lowest points, but this? Maya calling her asking for help after a fight? This was strange, and Teddy was worried for her friend, worried for their marriage.

"I umm- I-" Maya stuttered, running her free hand through her hair in an effort to calm herself. "I cheated. I- she saw my phone this morning and we fought, she tried to hit me. I had to hold her down until she was calm. she- I- she hasn't spoken since i let go of her. That was hours ago Teddy! What if- oh my God I fucked up so bad-"

"Okay, okay. Maya, take a breathe." Teddy was calm.. who would be calm after hearing that their friends wife is a cheater?
Maya's mind was racing, she had to get out of there. She doesn't deserve to be in that apartment, with her wife. Her wife that she cheated on.. Maya ripped her arm from Teddy's grip and grabbed her running shoes.

"I have to go" Maya mumbled, not able to look Teddy in the eye. She rushed out of the door, slamming it behind her before Teddy could utter a word.

Teddy took a sobering breath, trying to gather her thoughts, centre herself in preparation to deal with whatever state she was about to find Carina in. She approached the bedroom door, pushing it slowly. Her heart breaking at the sight before her.

"Oh, Carina"

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Authors Notes: This is my first ever fanfic! I wanted to write something frustrating and angsty😭. I hope it's not too much..

Let me know what you guys think! Chapter 2? & Im open to suggestions about the next chapters🩷.

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