The Unfortunate Afterthoughts

10. Her First

💡Josh's POV💡

May nods, "I do. Please." I nod slowly, "Okay...well there's a couple things I need to tell you before..." She nods, "Okay."

I nod, "First off, it may hurt...everyone's different so it may feel good to you I don't know but just don't be surprised if it does hurt...and if you start to bleed, that's okay. It just means that your hymen is getting stretched. Second of all, I'll have to show you everything and we need to find out what makes you feel good okay?" She nods with a small sweet smile, "Okay."

I can't help but smile. I reach out my hand for her to take and she does and I lead her to my room. I lead her in front of me and she speaks, "Can I keep my shirt on? I'm not comfortable enough to show my whole body." I nod, "Of course. May we don't have to do this if you don't want."

She nods, "I know. I want to. Do you?" I nod, "Yeah...I feel honored to be your first time. I'm gonna try to make it as memorable as possible in the most innocent way possible." I chuckle and she smiles as she wraps her arms around her self and looks at her sweat pants.

I look down at her sweat pants and to get her mind off overthinking too much about this event. I walk up to her and gently and slowly put my hands on her waist.

"You wanna dance with me since you didn't really get to at prom? And since I didn't have one?" She smiles and hugs me as we sway side to side. "Yes. That sounds lovely Josh."

After a couple moments of silence she speaks, "I'm nervous...I don't want it to hurt." I nod, "I know I don't want it to either but it might. I don't want to get your hopes up that it will feel good at first...I'm sorry."

She nods, "It's okay...so what do we do first?" I shake my head, "Whatever you're comfortable with doing." She smiles and messes with a string on the bottom of her shirt. "Can we lay down and see where we end up?"

I nod, "Sure." I take her hand and spin her around and she giggles, "Weeee." I chuckle and she laughs and bumps into me due to her laughter or her being dizzy. Or both.

We calm down quickly and the look she gives me makes me want to kiss her and never stop. It's like she hopes for me to kiss her.

I make sure to ask incase that's not what she wants, "Can I kiss you?" She nods, "Mhm..." I lean down slowly and she parts her lips and my mouth starts to water as I get closer and closer to her lips.

When our lips touch, it's almost like a shock that makes us flinch a little but soon enough our lips collide softly and slowly. I pick her up by her thighs and gently place her on the other side of my bed where no one sleeps which is on my right. I sleep on the left side of the bed, closest to the door.

I feel her waist through the white t shirt that should cover her whole body if not, it should atleast go to her underwear.

But right now she has sweats on. I want her to be as comfortable as possible and I want her to be ready to take off anything she wants to.

I sigh as I feel her waist with my right hand and move her hair out of her face with my left. I smile as I feel her waist through the cotton shirt I gave her.

I glide my hand down to the bottom of the shirt and speak, "You ready?" She nods and I reach under her shirt slowly and I feel her flinch as my fingertips graze her bare skin.

I put my hand on her waist and she shivers. I remember I have my senior ring on. I remove my hand and spin my ring around on my finger, "You want me to take it off?" I ask. She shakes her head. I read her mind. "It feels good doesn't it?" She nods shyly. Like she got caught.

I scoff and speak with a chuckle, "I figured." She smiles sweetly and covers her face. I hover over her and remove her hands. I lean down and give her a single kiss. "It's gonna be alright." I say, trying to comfort her and reassure her. She nods, "I know. I'm just scared." I nod, "That's understandable. We'll start off slow okay?" She nods.