A whirlwind of emotions
A suitcase full of my ambitions and dreams
Yet here I sit feeling out of place
Everywhere everyone has their group, their people
I do have my person tho
And I love her so much
I refuse to let my old habits get a hold of me
For someone that advises everyone that a comfort zone is only built, after stepping into the uncomfortable moments
I seriously can't seem to take it myself
Anywhere and everywhere people say you that it seems like you know it all but why can't you implement it
Even I'm not sure
This was meant to be a beautiful mysterious poem
Here we are tho
Settling into each on of my root problems
If anything I'm grateful
To all the people and support I have
And I'm grateful for myself
Regardless of all the changes that have occurred through the year
I can confidently say I have built a beautiful lifestyle for myself
And if anyone asked me if I regret anything, my answer is absolutely
But not if they were all things I needed to get here
Without me breaking your heart, I would have never learned that I truly was toxic back then and I truly was not in a place to take care of someone else when I couldn't even take care of myself
Without those lonely moments in school I would have never found my true friendship and my place in the beloved center
Without you asking me to my face, if I understood the situation, I never really did until then
Without you backstabbing and me cutting you off completely, I never realised that there are so many more beautiful friendships then the fake ass one I had with you, I hope you one day realise that all I had ever hoped was for you to thrive
And that darling is the goal
To thrive, to become the absolute best version of myself and be able to proudly achieve each one of my goals.
~MJ
YOU ARE READING
all of us
PoesíaTRIGGER..... with some love. This is a collection of poems about things that cause us pain and smiles. These are short poems about my life, some of them have direct meaning others are deep.
