Literally Nothing

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To the one who matters the most; God.

I almost came back to you yesterday.

The overwhelming feeling washed over me again.

"Why is that your only option?" You may ask.

Because I have begged, I have done everything else.. except this.

It is indeed a last resort.

You have Your reasons for not letting it happen.

I wish to see what you have in-store for me: It is of Good and not of evil.

Shall I continue this conversation later? Thank you.

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It seems like I did not leave..but anyway, here I am.

With that uneasy feeling again.

God;

What is it that I have that you did not give to me?

Then again, I have great pain..which You did not give to me.

It can't be of him, because he is no where around me, and can't be.

There's so much, but shall I burden you with such?

Too much runs through my mind, it is too much to handle.

My skin begs to be rid of me, as does my heart and mind.

The days are harder to get by, yet shorter and much more bearable.

I can't blame the earth, and my heart aches that I blame one of your creations -me.

Who you created with such precision and time, I'm sorry.

I will continue to pray endlessly, and worship without question, in hopes that one day, one blessed day..you'll answer my prayer and grant me eternal peace.

Authors Note-
I genuinely hope everyone finds the love of God♥