Maybe This Time

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Sex is great. But, sex with Ennis... it hits on a completely different level. It's painful and beautiful and happiness, all mixed up into one whole night of pleasure. As he lay underneath me, ready to take me and hold me and fuck me, I couldn't help but stop for a second and admire him.

He pulls me further onto his lap as I ready myself at his tip, his hair brushing my chin. Then, I carefully dropped myself onto him, salvaging the way I felt when he stretched me open, my body desperately aching to be closer to him.

Ennis gasps against my mouth, his hands gripping tighter around my hips, his fingers digging into my skin. I grit my teeth, my eyes fluttering to a close as Ennis pulls me closer, our chests pressed together.

I move my hips slightly, lifting myself up. I drop back onto him, and his head rolls back, his mouth slightly widened in pleasure. His hands travel to my ass, cupping my cheeks as he slowly guides me. Ennis' lips are on my chin before they softly skim up my jaw and across my cheek before he kisses me, taking my bottom lip in between his teeth. His tongue is in my mouth and his nails dig into my ass as he pushes our hips together.

"Fuck." I grit, my hand dragging around the back of Ennis' neck and my fingers run through his hair as my hips buck and my back arches and Ennis' hands guide me on top of him. My hand is on his jaw as I lift his head and press a sloppy kiss to his lips, and I gasp into his mouth when he buries himself deeper into me.

"You feel so good." Ennis whispers against my lips, and my breath catches when he rolls his hips up, meeting mine hungrily. A deep moan leaves my mouth, and I feel Ennis' lips on my throat, his teeth nipping me slightly. I clung to him desperately, my eyes falling onto his as he stared up at me, his eyes shining. His long eyelashes fluttered against his brow bone and he blinked gently, his lips twitching into a smile.

Then, before I could process anything, my breath was taken away from me when Ennis grips my waist and flips us over, his body weight crushing me. I gasp into his mouth just as his fingers dig into my hair and his hips crash against mine, pushing so far into me that a scream leaves my throat. "Oh my fucking God!" I gasped, and Ennis buried his face into my neck, his lips lightly pressed to my skin.

He thrusts into me powerfully, before he curls his hands around my thighs and pulls me down, closer to him. My legs go around his waist as I push him further into me. Ennis rolls his hips over mine, hitting my g-spot. I yell out in pleasure, my eyes squeezing shut as he groans into my neck, biting into my skin.

My moans and whimpers fill the room, mixing with the beautiful sound of our skin slapping against each other and Ennis' groans of pleasure as he pushes into me. His knees dig into the bed and his fingers grip the back of my neck as I arch my back and squeeze my thighs around him. A moan leaves Ennis' mouth and travels straight down my spine, filling me to the brim.

I feel myself coming to the edge, just as Ennis slows his thrusts, falling into a more steady pattern of thrusts and kisses and gentle caressing of my skin. I stare up at him, my breathing heavy and my mouth slightly open, and I silently beg Ennis to finish me off, to ruin me and fill me because this is too much and I can't take it.

His thrusts get heavier once more. He shudders and moans and groans and I feel myself tighten around him. "Fuck." He grumbles, squeezing my bedsheets in his hands. "I'm gonna- oh my God." He kisses my neck a few times, his body shaking.

My stomach tightens and thunderbolts run down my spine and the orgasm rips through me like lightning and my moans turn into squeaks as I drag my nails down Ennis' back, surely leaving a mark.

Ennis sloppily pushes into me, his hand on my hip as he bites into my shoulder, a small amount of sweat dripping down the back of his neck. He moans into my skin as he spills out into the condom, stilling inside of me. His body collapses onto mine as he catches his breath and I run my hands over his shoulder blades. My brain was made of fog.

Ennis slowly rolls off of me, disposing of the condom. His hand is on his stomach and he stares up at the ceiling, his eyes hazy. "That was... crazy." He breathes, and I chuckle lightly, turning to my side to face him.

"Wanna go again?" I asked him, and he grins, his eyes squinting to a close.

"Maybe in a few minutes. I need to have a little rest." He told me, turning his head. His eyes flicker all over my face and down my naked body and I giggled to myself, acting completely oblivious. Ennis reaches out and strokes my hip lightly, smiling to himself. "How is it possible..." He whispers, his eyes flicking up to mine. "That I'm lucky enough to have you?" He asked, and my breath caught in my throat.

I'm not used to affection. I never have been. With Obi, he was rarely ever affectionate with me, and maybe that's why I liked it. I was comfortable without having feelings in the way. Then, Obi told me he loved me and it was like this whole fantasy that I had imagined came crumbling down on me. But, with Ennis... everything is different. I love opening up to him. It felt good. It felt right. It felt normal.

"You've always had me, Ennis." I finally tell him, softly running my finger down his cheek. "I don't think you ever lost me." I add, and he smiles slightly, a sad look in his eyes. I gently kiss him, cupping his cheek. Ennis pulls me onto his lap, his hands on my waist, and then we're at it again, tiring each other out.