Just one glance at me and you'd think nothing much of me.
You'd think "Oh, she looks happy with her group of friends."
And that's true, I am very happy when I'm with my friends.
But sometimes I just can't bring a smile to my face.
Not even a fake one.
Sometimes I can't get myself to laugh at that joke or at something funny someone said.
Sometimes I can't even get out of bed.
There's a lot of sides to me that people don't know about, I being one of them.
But the two main ones are happiness and sadness.
Sometimes I'm happy and I feel like I'm on top of the world.
Sometimes I feel so..normal that I think I've overcome my disorders.
But then I get sad out of nowhere.
It's like a switch that went off in my head from happiness to sadness.
And I can't switch it back, it's a one way switch.
The only way to break out of this sadness is to break that switch.
Another will grow and I'll be sad again.
But I like to believe I'm getting better.
That this is all temporary and that I'm overcoming my sadness.
I like to believe that one day I won't have that switch.
That one day, I'll be okay.
