My mind has gone into overdrive
But has also shut itself down
The thoughts won't shut up
But sometime they don't say a word
They often say I'm a terrible person
That I don't deserve her..
But when I ask why, they repeat the same words
Or they don't answer me at all
I believe that she should leave me
Because really what I am?
I'm useless and pathetic
I can't offer anything other than the shitty parts of me
I don't know what to do
Lately I've just wanted to stay in bed
Hiding under the covers from the disappointment
Hiding from myself more like it..
I don't see the me that she sees
I only see the ugly and fat me
I only see the useless and pathetic me
I can't believe what I can't see
I don't know what to do
I can't get out of bed most days
I'm a piece of shit basically
And I'm sorry
I'm afraid..
I'm afraid she's going to leave me
I don't want her to leave..I need her..
Please don't leave me..
I'm scared I'm going to lose her
I'm scared she's going to die
I'm scared she's going to love another
I'm scared that she won't be by my side
Please don't leave me
I don't know what I'd do without her
I can't handle this
I'm sorry..
