Poison on Promises

💎 CHAPTER VII 💎

A month has passed since something happened that night to s.coups and jeonghan . After that night, everything went back to normal days and work.  None of them tried to talk about what happened that night . It hurts jeonghan to think that maybe s.coups regrets what happened to them that night . Jeonghan can't help but think these kinds of suspicions because Jeonghan noticed that s.coups immersed himself more and more in his work.  Just like now that s.coups never did not come home for more than a week at the mansion . Jeonghan couldn't call s.coups to even say hello because s.coups might think wrong about him . Jeonghan knows in himself that he doesn't need to cross the line between him and s.coups as a friend . He also couldn't label anymore their relationship as a friends with benefits because after their night at the club, nothing happened to them again .

JEONGHAN POV

" Hey hyung , are you ok ? " the8 asked me which surprised me because I was so deep in thought that I didn't notice that he was right next to me .

" Oh?  When did you arrived from China ? You surprised me . Don't worry, I'm fine .  Wait , is Jun with you also ? "
I asked .

" Yes, he went straight to his room to rest, you know jetlag . " He sassily answered me .

" Why don't you also rest in your room ? And when the dinner is all ready i will let you know . hmm .. ? " I said to him then i tap his shoulder .

" I love when you act like a mother on us , hyung . I'm going up to my room , bye , eomma . " He only took a few steps before he turned to me again .

eomma ( 엄마 ) - mom

" Whatever you're thinking and need to talk to, I'm here or any of us here at the mansion , don't hesitate to talk to us .  We promise to understand and protect you . " he added, and he continued to go to his room .

I don't know how I will feel about what Minghao said to me . I avoid talking about these things because I don't want them to worry about me and because it can be possibly affect their relationship with Seungcheol . I don't want to ruin our friendship just because of me . I do not know what to do . I can no longer focus on my work . 
I feel useless . I don't even recognize myself anymore . I just want to disappear.  I'm getting tired .

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" Hyung ????!! , He's awake , call the fucking doctor ! " that is mingyu's voice and why he needs a doctor what happened to him ?

" Hyung ? , can you hear me ? " Is he talking to me ? This giant puppy is crazy, I can probably hear him .

" I'm sorry but can you all leave the room , please?  I need to check Mr.Hannie's condition . " Me ? need to  check ??  What's going on ? Why can't I move my body ??

When I opened my eyes , Dr.Lee Hyun immediately checked me . And my eyes also caught my friends going out .

" Mr.Hannie , can you please try to speak ? " Dr.Lee asked .

" What happened to me Dr.Lee ? "
I asked him in a whisper because I felt weak .

" Mr.Hannie , your unconscious for almost three days ." Dr.Lee said .

" Can you please try to move your arms ? "

I moved and I was very grateful and I was able to move my arms as well as my legs .

" Why earlier I can't move my body ?
I wondered .

" This is only natural, for those who lose consciousness for a long time.  But so that we can be sure that there is no other reason for everything that you have experienced, we will conduct different tests . "

" I just want to confirm Mr. Hannie, do you often feel anxiety or depression lately ?" Dr.Lee asked that scared me .

" I don't want to lie to you . Yes , anxiety often attacks me and sometimes I feel very tired of my life . Sometimes I even think about killing myself because I feel useless ." I didn't realize that there were tears already falling in my eyes .

" I want to give you calming pills , but Mr. Hannie..." he suddenly stopped speaking .

" But what ??!! Can you please get straight to the point, Dr. Lee .
I'm dying ? right ?? Nothing to worry, because I accepted immediately and I'm ready . " I smiled at him, a sign that I was sincere in what I said .

" You're pregnant , a one-month-old child is in your womb . " Dr. Lee's revelation .

I held my womb while staring at the doctor in tears . Why do i felt that this is wrong ? What will s.coups think of me ? He will be able to accept this child that I am carrying , his own child .

" Dr.Lee , can you please keep this as secret ? " I am begging him .

" It is my obligation as a doctor to protect the private information of my patients . You can count on me Mr. Hannie . " Somehow Dr. Lee's words made me feel better .

" Thank you very much Dr.Lee, I owe you a lot . " I smiled at him .

" I will continue to explain about the possible effect on the child you are carrying if you take calming pills for your anxiety.  It's also not good for the child to be stressed all the time . " He explained to me first .

" The child you are carrying has a low chance of having a birth defect, due to the calming pills , if you will allowed me to give you . " He added .

" If it can harm my child , I don't want to take those pills ." I answered while rubbing my not yet obvious baby bump .

" No problem, I gotta go , so you can rest well and please start eating healthy food you need more nutrients 'cuz now  your child is also counting on you and most importantly avoid thinking negative thoughts, to avoid anxiety . " He nagged at me .

" Thank you Dr.Lee ." I smiled thanking him .