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I've got you, honey

UM HELLO?!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALMOST 1.5K READS. YOURE ALL SO AMAZING I CANT EVEN IMAGINE GETTING HERE. now, I do know that doesnt mean 1.5k people have read it, but still thank you so so much. just a TW, this book does contain mentions of throwing up. so if that bothers you please skip <3

I couldn't sleep at all. The bed was scratching at my skin in ways that made me so uncomfortable. my head was pounding and I couldnt stop myself from sweating. I looked over at my girl friend, Ashley. She was sound asleep. she looked so peaceful. her dusty blonde hair was fanned out on her pillow, her back was facing me. Her sleeping figure seemed so relaxed. I was jealous to say the least. I tried to go back to sleep but my eyes would not rest. It felt like my stomach kept doing flips. I sighed and tried to fight back the tears building.

I cant throw up. this is so disgusting

my breath quickened in fear. I hated throwing up. I hated it more than anything in the whole world. there was no worse feeling than throwing up. the way my abs clenched while being bent over the toilet. its horrible.

I tried to hype myself up into getting up. it took nearly an hour. I was struggling to get out of bed. my hands were sweaty from fear. the anxiety and fear only made the nauseous feeling grow. The bathroom might as well have been miles away. I kept getting more and more scared.

in a moment of hesitation I opened the door to the bathroom and saw the porcelain bowl in front of me. I sighed and knelt down in front of it. I couldnt help but pray that this feeling would leave.

you can do it... you only have to throw up once and itll all be over.

Again, I tried to hype myself up. although it seemed to be more and more difficult. My breathing was out of place and quick. I was scared. it was something so dumb to be afraid of. and I dont know why I was scared. its just disgusting, every single part of it. I will never change my mind on that opinion. I hate the way my body tenses up as I throw up, making everything sore and achey after.

I tried not to cry while I struggled to calm down.

you can do it, cmon just breathe. 

I felt the tears build in the side of my eyes. I hung my head low in the bowl and attempted to push myself to release but it ultimately failed. I cried silently, scared of what to do. I couldn't force myself to throw up. and I certainly was not going to just sit there and feel this way.

I heard the door open and I turned around to see Ashley, she looked exhausted. Her hand went up to her face and she rubbed her eye. Her blonde hair shined in the dim bathroom light. her clothes were wrinkly, but I loved her so much even when she was a sleepy mess. her red and black flannel pants wet moved up just above her knees. the sight made me smile softly and then the gross feeling of nausea came back once again. I closed my eyes in fear once again.

"What's wrong, love?" She asked, kneeling down behind me. I shook my head and turned to face the bowl again. I could sense the empathetic smile on her face. She sat down behind me and placed one hand on my back. the other went into my hair, pulling it out of my face.

"I know you're scared, but I'm here." she traced small circles over my spine "I've got you, honey."

I felt slightly better and took one more breath before I felt my body release everything that was making my stomach flip. It was disgusting, and scary. but Ashley helped me through it. her hands were tight on my hair, just enough to keep it out of my face. she helped me calm down after.

"Good job, beautiful girl. You're okay." She kissed the back of my neck as I finished up. I flushed the toilet, not even bothering to look at it as it went down. She stayed with me the whole time as I brushed my teeth and tiredly walked back to bed. her arm was wrapped around my shoulder.

"How do you feel?" she asked, pulling the covers back over my body.

"So much better, thank you ash" I replied quietly, and I felt my eyes get heavy and I waited for my girlfriend to join me in bed. I groggily shifted over to her and put my head on her chest. she smiled and kissed my forehead. I drifted off to sleep in her arms, thankful for her more and more each day. I couldnt have a better person to be my girlfriend. 

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sorry for the short chapter, I havent had much Inspo recently. i want to start writing more though soon. is there anything specific you want to see in future chapters?? please feel free to let me know <3

did you eat today love?