Your helping hand | Severus x Reader

〔 Chapter 19 , Delusional Me〕

Last minute short-chapter for today.
See y'all again for another month /jk
-author

Y/N's POV

    Being at the presence of the man i once love felt nice again. Admiring the sceneries around us, feeling the gentle breeze of the wind, listening to the sound of his voice as we talked for many many hours. Although, time was bound to end, we walked back to hogwarts together and said our goodbyes for the starry night.

Dancing around my office with myself, remembering each conversation we held and created new. Feeling the same butterflies that have fluttered my stomach in every giddy feeling. Each step echoes from the sound of my heel tap against this polished floors. Stopping at the sight of my open window, as i watched the curtains flew with the wind that came in the room.

In that very moment.

A thought came passing through my mind that would keep me awake once again.

Severus...

He never told me his reason.

That night..

He never told me why he ended our friendship, so quickly, without any hesitation.

Was it because of what i said?
When i told him that, 'i love him back'

But was he not the first to open up?

I'm not quite sure... That can't be good...

I thought to my self before closing the window.

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A few weeks later...

    Slipping my comforter away as i sat down on my bed, with my arms wrapped around my legs while I rest my chin on my knees.

Feeling the exhaustion draining me. Not when i got extra pile of work assigned especially for me, for dismissing my work without permission, i guess i deserved it.

Lately, every night. Snape would visit me with a sleeping draught to help my sleeping difficulties. I admire that about him, i'm in love with his efforts. I love how he would stays up at night to keep me company while he waits for me to fall asleep, i could feel butterflies again. But lately, i couldn't find the right words to ask him about my thoughts that have been hovering me. It felt like something was trying to stop me.

I could remember the feeling of being hopeless romantic again, i felt a slight cringe in my chest. No matter how much i dream of being in love, we agreed to stay friends, to start all over again. Which pains me every time, the thoughts that will remind me out of nowhere.

Once again, i heard the same rhythmic knock i hear every night that i now memorize. My eyes lit up into excitement. I sat up ever so quickly as i dashed to the door and clicked the door knob within a second.

”Good evening severus”

”Evening to you too, Y/N”

A smile came sneaking into the corners of my lips as i let him enter the room. He handed me the vile as i took it as always. My fingertips touching his cold hands even if in was just an inch away.

”How's the potion going for you? Are you getting any decent sleep?”

”It's making small progress but yes, i am getting some decency”

”That's good”

The silence came back again. I stood there quietly beside my bed before sitting down as the silence continue to fill.

”Severus”

”Yes?”

I stared at his eyes as he gazed at mine. Trying to cherish the empty silence before i change it into a conversation or a mistake i could make.

I left my mouth in a agape before closing it only to realize that i should keep my mouth shut, that it may be something personal to him and i don't want to invade his privacy or offend him in any other way.

”i... I just wanna know how life is going for you”

I started as i quickly thought of a excuse. Masking a genuine smile while my thumb caress the small glass.

”Was that all? You made it sound like the question was serious”

He said before letting out a soft chuckle that made my heart skip a beat. Another smile decided to appear on my lips as his low chuckles filled my dimly-lighted room.