Kim saw Chay walking out and he didn't even think twice before giving the mic off to Sam telling him that he had something important to do and went away to find chay.
He found Chay walking in the sideways and he ran up to him.
"Porchay" he called out putting his hands onto chays shoulder.
Chay almost freaked out as he wiped his tears and gathered his thoughts before he turned, Kim knew chay had been crying the moment his eyes met with Chays, it was all red.
"Chay..I-" porchay cut him off.
"It's Porchay for you Phi Wik." Chay spoke as he saw Kim's eyes change from stunned to just dejected ones.
"Cha- sorry. Porchay, You can still call me Kim. but hey, Just let me talk to you. Please listen to me." Kim said pain surrounding each and every inch of his words,
"Are you serious? LISTEN? TO YOU? All this time i LISTENED to you had been really helpful to my life..P'KIM" Chay said and his once sweet tendered voice that kim loved to hear as chay called his name had now turned into ones filled with remorse and utter hatred.
"Please." Kim spoke pleading in the best voice he could muster.
"Okay. Go on. I am listening." Chay told Kim unable to avoid his own pain, and Kim looked around incase there was anyone else and Chay sighed, shaking his head,
"Come with me" he told Kim and took him into an alley beside the club.
"Speak." he told as he leaned into the wall and Kim could just not register the amount of coldness chay felt for him.
"Porchay, I wanted to start by apologizing. I am Sorry." Kim said and Chay snorted
"You really have very less vocabulary to yourself don't you?" Porchay said anger rising in himself
"Porchay, I never wanted to do that to you. I swear" Kim spoke anguished
"Do exactly what? Act like you loved me? Tell me that you wanted to tutor me to actually pry on my brother? Take the idolisation and the love I had for you for your shitty benefits!?" Chay blinked his tears away, his tears from forming as Kim stood there speechless.
"All of them." Kim spoke after some silence in leave,
And now Chay had lost it, the anger and the tears had started arising and forming
"THIS IS WHAT ANNOYS ME THE MOST. IT'S OBVIOUS YOU WANT TO SAY SOMETHING BUT YOU DON'T. YOU JUST DON'T. YOU TREAT ME AS IF EVERYTHING'S TOO MUCH FOR ME TO HANDLE AND LEGIT TREAT ME LIKE KID. YOU ACT AS IF YOU WANT ME TO UNDERSTAND YOU BUT THEN YOU GO AHEAD INDIRECTLY TELLING ME THAT ME UNDERSTANDING YOU IS BEYOND MY CAPACITY SO HIDING THE TRUTH IS MUCH BETTER. YOU KNOW WHAT PHI!? I'M DONE WITH YOU. YOU WERE MY IDOL," Chay said as he pointed his finger into Kim's chest as tears rolled down his face "YOU made me feel so much closer to music. I always felt like finding a singer like you was the best thing that could have ever happened to someone like me. I WAS OKAY WITH JUST BEING A FAN. But then you just decide to go all comfort on me which MY STUPID SELF DIDN'T KNOW WAS JUST A BIG WHOLE LIE. I Thought what I saw in your eyes was LOVE...for ME. But it was YOUR LOVE FOR YOUR SELFISH DESIRES, Yet I was a fool who was blinded and fell in love, fell in love hard. I was stupid enough to think someone like YOU would be able to love Someone like ME. and Let me tell you. 'I' AM SORRY FOR THAT. GENUINELY." Chay continued as his face was red with anger and cheeks wet with tears.
Kim wanted to cry and hug him but he knew he didn't have any right to. All he could do was clench his fist and look at the sorrowful sight before him.
"Chay I wanted to actually say that-" Kim told,
"PORCHAY. ITS PORCHAY. AND DON'T BOTHER TO SAY ANYTHING AT ALL. I'M NOT INTERESTED ANYMORE." He said as he walked away.
Kim watched him wipe his tears and he stopped a cab and got into it and rode away. A tear fell down from the eyes of Kimhan theerapanyakul
"I was a coward. again."
Heyy, Hope this chapter is upto your liking. See you tomorrow! Have a great day!❤️❤️
