Kiss in the Rain

Researching Lachlan

A/N: I tried to be cryptic on the last update but I guess I just couldn't bear to see y'all confused—- so, here ya go, guys ;)

Ethan loves me. I trust him.

Ethan loves me. I trust him.

Ethan loves me. I trust him. Ethan loves me. I trust him.

This is my mantra for the past five days since I found out the truth. Well, a glimpse of the truth. This reminder was the only thing that was keeping me sane. To be honest, the hurt that I felt in the beginning were almost gone. Almost. Being kept in the dark still hurts you know—— but not as much as it used to.

I understand where Ethan and everybody else were coming from. I understand why they kept it from me. The entire hullabaloos that they've been telling me to comfort me, at the same time, divert my attention from the real issue at hand, as well. I get it. I totally do. Why am I not contacting any of them then?

You don't know why? Really?

Are you serious right now?

Imagine yourself in my position. Nada? Still don't get it? Well, let me make it easier for you.

The reason why after I forced Matt to let me go home alone, I haven't called any of them (Ethan, the rest of the Spencer lot, Matt, I'll mention Ethan once again to give emphasis, and whoever else is in this secret) is because——

Wait for it—-

...

Dun dun duuunnn!

I.AM.FLIPPING.FRIGGING.FUCKING.MAD.

Lemme see those waves of flames from the pits of hell, yow! (Coz I wanna singe all of their body hairs as a form of torture-slash-revenge, yep, I'm eeeviiil. Mwahahaha!)

I mean, come on! Not letting me know that my boyfriend is a FREAKING PRINCE who's possibly ABOUT to BECOME A KING will achieve what exactly?!? If I put myself in Ethan's shoes, for sure, my safety is one of the top reasons why he chose not to tell me who he actually is. The less I know, the better so that other people couldn't hound me. However, do those people who supposedly should hound me even know that I exist? It's not like he declared me as his girlfriend. Therefore, that reason is moot.

The (assumed) top reason why Ethan kept the truth about himself is that he's making sure that I love him for him and not because of his title. Aaaaaand, I have been assuring him that I am in love with him ever since we became official. He tried to break up with me, I fought for him. Aside from that, he already knows ALL of ME—-my past, my hang-ups and issues, my bodeeeh, my likes and dislikes, my quirks, my interests, not yet my dreams, but still. Thus, this reason is understandable, but MOOT.

So, why didn't he tell me? Why hasn't he tried to call me?

I know. I know. I said I haven't contacted any of them—- but that doesn't mean that they haven't been pestering me for the past five days to call them back and talk about it. All of them ARE STILL trying to talk to me. ALL except for Ethan.

For sure, the news that I already know about him being a prince would've traveled by now. I mean, by Matt's web of connection, Ethan probably heard about it the minute I got home. And he still hasn't called me. Is he waiting for my call? Is he afraid of what I might say?

(You'll never know if you'll never ask.)

But, I'm mad at him!

(Do you love him?)