Kiss in the Rain

Girl in a Cute Dress

Days have passed and I was back to work once again. Matt's still on-leave so I still haven't seen him. I'm missing him more than I actually thought I would. Ugh... Girl-who-always-doubts-her-decisions problems. *smh*

What's worse was that aside from these terribly-missing-my-best-friend feels, my socialite lie to Ethan has been gnawing up on my insides and I'm telling you, it's freaking killing me slowly. For the umpteenth time, why on earth have I lied to him?

You, guys, might be thinking, "Why not just tell him, you dumb twat? It's that simple." Well, yeah, it seems pretty easy. I mean, I could just walk up to him, tell him "Hey Goober, I'm not a socialite. I'm just a waitress in a cocktail bar. Wait, what? Why did I lie? Oh, you know. Just some lame comeback which I didn't actually thought you'd believe. So, we cool? Wait, where are you going? What do you mean you don't know if you can trust me? No, I did not lie on purpose! I did not do it because I'm looking down on you coz you're a damn hot pizza guy! No, it's not like that. It was just a slip of the tongue kind of thing. Wait, Ethan. Hey, you can't leave me! Please don't! I---"

I love you.

And now, you could see the root of my fears. I am finally admitting to myself, that I, *insert dramatic speech background song here* Natalie Baker, am truly, madly and deeply in love with a stranger, no wait, with an acquaintance, a damn hot pizza guy actually, named Ethan Spencer.

Oh shit.

"Hey lady! Time for your break. You're gonna miss it again if you don't go now," Chef Bob yelled from the kitchen.

"Oh yeah, right. Thanks for reminding me," I mumbled as I grabbed my bag from the back room and headed out. I missed my lunch yesterday because of my overthinking problems.

As I was walking down the street, I suddenly heard that song playing out of nowhere once again.

Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di

Everybody's gonna love today,

Gonna love today, gonna love today.

Everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today.

Anyway you want to, anyway you've got to,

Love love me, love love me, love love.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!! That maddening song!

It's not that I don't like it, don't get me wrong here. Mika's an awesome singer and I love him dearly. It's just that it's not helping me think. Ever heard of 'last song syndrome'? LSS? Yeah, basically this freaking song--- it's befuddling my mind even worse than it already is.

Three days ago, the song was played in the Blazin' Bar. I got home and turned on my television, I see it playing on MTV. I woke up the next day and it was played in the cab that I was riding. On my way home, it was played again in the train. This morning, my neighbor's radio was blaring and it's playing this song, too. And now that I'm on my way to lunch, I hear it again?

Is somebody playing a trick on me? God? I thought we're on good terms? I already admitted to myself that I'm in love with Ethan, what else do you want? No need to rub it in my face that I'd been lying to him about myse---- oh. Of course.

Gritting my teeth, I trudged my way towards the nearest coffee shop to clear my thoughts. Nothing that a good cup of coffee couldn't cure, right?

As I entered the shop, that's when it hit me how fucking lucky of a person I am.

I've been crying for so long,

Fighting tears just to carry on,

But now, but now, it's gone away.