✓ perfect match ˒ svt

this is not a chapter but please read!

hi lovelies! first off i just want to say thank you so much for 13k! this book is super awesome and i'm glad it's gotten so many views! i'm so grateful to each and everyone of you who continues to read my book!

now....what i really got on here for. i decided to write on here the long version of my message on here rather than my message board because i think the people that read this book don't follow me/or are svt fans.

last night i watched a video about the joshua allegations just because i was shocked to see another video since i thought the rumors were dying down. but watching the video i was saddened to see joshua crying at the japan concert. joshua also looks very unhealthy and is visibly not doing so well at the moment.

if some of you don't know, joshua is in a dating rumor with a model and honestly it's gotten really out of hand. the rumors started when a 'fan' posted pictures of the two wearing matching clothes, jewelry, and more. honestly first seeing it i thought nothing of it but i was happy that joshua found someone. but the next few days there was trucks outside the pledis building telling him to leave seventeen.

it's so heartbreaking for people you don't even know and thought supported you to be telling you to leave something you've worked so hard on. joshua came from la just to go korea and be an idol trainee. correct me if i'm wrong, but josh didn't know that much korean so it was really hard for him to come into a room with a bunch of boys and just train with them. of course, he did have vernon which i'm sure he's more than grateful for. but it was probably hard for him.

'fans' also are boycotting his merch. recently they had sold things for their japan concert which i think they just ended their first location? again, please correct me if i'm wrong. but talking about the merch, every member was sold out except joshua. now i get it because people have different biases but i just find it so confusing that it was only joshua that didn't sell out.

now after this they had to go on a flight to somewhere, i honestly don't fucking know. and joshua looked unhealthy. i don't want to say horrible because he didn't, i mean it's shua we're talking about. but he did look unhealthy. his skin looked pale and he looked very skinny. seeing those pictures made me heartbroken and that's when i started to try to stop that hate. i wrote a long statement in chapter 73 i believe and i still mean every word i said. and what's worse is at the time seungkwan was still on hiatus and seungcheol had just damaged his legs so joshua was missing two members and he was getting fucking hated on.

joshua had posted a picture on weverse and commented on seungkwan's and seungcheol's posts and there was comments saying that he was trying to get the attention of him AND SO WHAT??

from there the rumors started dying down except for a new one where she (the rumored girlfriend) was spotted at the concert. but last night i watched a video of him crying at the japan concert and it hurt my heart so much. i know i might be a little dramatic but it's so hard for people sending you hate comments just because you're in love with someone.

and i know again, it's a culture thing. i don't know why cause it's disturbing and disgusting. you can be delusional to a point but not like this. the korean fans believe that they own the idol and if they date they're cheating on them. you how stupid that sounds? like i'm sorry. you guys know that i'm delusional for wonwoo but i also, very tmi, have a daydream disorder which i have a love hate relationship with. but anyways i'm delusional but i know that i'll never be with wonwoo and i'm fine with that. like fans call themselves like "hoshi's gf" or something like that but i don't think they actually means it / believe it. i'm also not calling anyone out hoshi was the first member that came to mind!

i just wish the kpop fandom wasnt this toxic. i wish that the idols can, mostly the male k-pop idols, can live life with happiness and have the love they want. and what made me more made is that when female k-pop idols date they barley get any hate. like with iu and jisoo, i barely seen them get hated on. which make me so mad because then why is it just the male idol? i believe it was an exo members but he said he was getting married and he got so much hate. like i really think that's messed up.

im honestly going to end my rage here because im not even sure half of you will read this. but please, please, PLEASE stop this joshua hate.

(also sorry if i have messed up words i'm currently not doing well as ima just came on and i'm a mess because that song literally came out on my birthday and i have so much meaning with it 😭.)