TO MY YOUTH, DEMON SLAYER

041. straight off of a Shakespeare bot

23 March 2022
Apology Letter or Whtv.

First of all, i don't know how to write a fucking letter — and second of all, this was mostly ripped straight off of a bot. It's the thought that counts, Kokushibo said. So here you go.

A few weeks ago, Nakime told me I was a "dick" for always being mean to you. I was not being mean. I was being me. This is a self-defense + apology letter, yes. I am defending myself from malicious hate speech from people around me regarding my "dickhead" behavior to you, but don't worry, I do that to everyone I'm not close to, which includes you.

I am guilty for making you upset during that hang out to the flower garden. And if it makes you better, I hung onto the flower crown you gave me and the souvenir you got me. Thank you for at least including me even if I was being such a "dickhead" that day.

With all due respect, it was none of my intention to make you upset. I was upset at first when I knew that you were friends with Himejima, Rengoku, and the others (you name them). But it has come to my senses that everything is getting old, childish, and immature. Especially since I am in my twenties right now.

Ever since you came into the group, everything has began to change. Including our behavior, we don't really get into trouble anymore — and believe it or not, I had a hard time adjusting to the fact that people in our campus no longer look at us in hatred or disgust. It feels kind of refreshing, you have my thanks.

I realized that this was the kind of life I wanted for so long. People not looking at me or my friends in pure hatred, annoyance, or fear. People not thinking that we are a nuisance to society, this is the life I have always seen Gyomei and his friends go through. And I envy them, but being able to feel it myself. I felt free. Like I'm infinite, and I want to always feel like this.

It feels weird to see me looking up answers to weird questions like: "how to apologize to someone" or "what do you say when you're sorry", because Kokushibo asked me if I was dying, and I contemplated on saying yes. I was positive that I was dying because why else would I do this kind of thing?

But no, this was because I had gotten used to the old life where I was just seen as someone who makes trouble here and there, and these past few weeks felt like a new chapter. It's a nice feeling. And I realized that this wouldn't be possible if you hadn't entered our lives.

I know I said that this was ripped straight off of a bot, but I mean what everything in here says. I'm not used to apologies and I have a hard time doing that, it was never my intention from the beginning to upset you. At the very first time, I actually thought you were only taking advantage of us, considering you were friends with Himejima and his buddies.

It was hard to believe that you would defend us to the point where you'd actually fight for us. Because in my twenty years of living — nobody has ever went that far for us.

Aside than an apology and self-defense. I would also like to say thank you.

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Thank you for putting your trust in my friends and I. And as much as I hate it to admit that they're my friends and that they're important to me, they actually are. And I consider them an important aspect of my life.

Kokushibo laughed at my first page of apology letter, and I don't know why the fuck he's laughing. Do you even see anything wrong with it? I know it was ripped off from a bot, and it's unlike of me to say these kind of words.