The pain inside
The horrible thoughts
The horrible wishes
The horrible people
The horrible life
The horrible nights
Each day I feel like crap
Each day I just sit in my room
Each day I just want to die
Each day I over think
Each day I hate my self More and more
More and more I just want to die
More and more I'm disappointed
More and more I die inside
More and more I live in the dark
I live in a hellhole
I live in hell
I live in music
I live in Atlanta and I don't want to
I don't want to live
I don't want to eat
I don't want to sleep at night
At night I sit in a dak room with the door closed
At night I stay up till 4
At night I hold the blade
At night I don't cut
At night I put myself down
At night I beat myself up
At night I watch YouTube
At night I think about life
I think about how things will never get better
I think about death
I think about all the people that "care" about me
I think about the "what ifs"
I think about my flaws and
how horrible they are
My flaws are My weight
My flaws are skin
My flaws are my teeth
My flaws are face
My flaws are body
My flaws are that I'm broken
My flaws are everything
Everything goes wrong
Everything happens
Everything leaves
Everything is broken
Everything will get better is what I tell myself
I tell myself I'm pretty
I tell myself I'm okay
I tell myself I have everything
I tell myself I'm loved
I tell myself that I should stop the self harm
I tell myself I'm going to get better
I tell myself not to cry
I tell myself not to tell
I tell myself to keep it up
I tell myself not to end it all
There are people who put me down everyday
There are people want me to die
There are people who want me to live
There are people saving my life
There are people I look up to
There are people I live for
The people saving my life are
Jordan Sweeto, Johnnie Guilbert, Bryan Starz, Kyle David Hall, Alex Dorame. (The My Digital Escape cast basically)
The people I look up to are all the people above, Eminem, Kellin Quinn, Oliver Skyes,the bands, Pierce the Veil, Black Veil Brides, Sleeping with Sirens, All Time Low, and Never Shout Never. (There are much more but there the most important)
The people I live for are myself to see if things get better, #konnie, my "friends" (I think) and my niece so she won't grow up without an aunt.
