The Girl Who's Still Longing For The Past

Sixth Chapter

For every day that passes, Brooke changes more. She becomes more b!tchy and all. She treats each person as if they are all inferior to her. She gets irritated to even the littlest things. She became so picky when it comes to food, music, clothes. You name it, she hates it.

As much as possible, Lacey doesn’t want to deal with this matter because she trusts Brooke so much but then, out of curiosity, she asked Brooke what’s happening to her.

“Brooke, tell me. Why did you change all of a sudden?”

“This is where I’m happy. Can’t you deal with that?”

“No, it’s not like that. It’s just that you’ve changed so much that I can’t actually remember the Brooke that I took care of after all this time.”

“You know what, it’s actually not my fault why I became like this. If you didn’t seclude me from the real world, maybe I became more of a normal person.”

“How dare you say those things to me?” Lacey shouted and she slapped Brooke. Brooke was shocked with what Lacey did but that didn’t stop her from going back to her b!tchy personality.

“Gee, thanks mom. You’re really the best. After all this time, I thought you were there for me but I guess I was wrong.”

“Brooke, what is wrong with you? Why are treating me and your dad like this?” Lacey tried to stop her tears from falling but she failed to do so. She broke down and cried.

“I don’t know. Maybe I felt like I was left behind. I felt like you loved your company more than me. I felt like you focused more on your charity works than taking care of me. I know it sucks but I felt like I’m not really a part of this family just like what our other relatives say.” Brooke started to cry as well. Tension was not felt in their conversation. It was more of longing, depression and frustration.

“You know that’s not true. We love you so much. We gave you everything you needed and you wanted. We gave our free times. You know that we needed to work hard for your own sake. You know that we love you and we do care for you. Never did we forget about our responsibilities to you. So never ever think that we’re not here for you because we are and you are the one keeps on closing your door from us.” Brooke kept on crying after hearing those words from Lacey. She doesn’t know what to do or say next. All she that knows is that she’s still hurting and she wants to escape from the pain that she is feeling.

Brooke ran to her room with tears flowing from her eyes. Out of instincts, she locked the door of her room and closed all the windows. She sat down at one corner and cried like there’s no tomorrow.

Out of frustration, she went to the bathroom inside her room and picked up the first sharp thing that she found. She went out of the bathroom and went back to the corner where she originally sat. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath.

“If all things would come to an end, I better do it myself. I can’t stand the fact that I’m the one who’s causing the pain to my parents. I can’t believe that I became the person that they never expected me to be. If me being happy causes pain to the ones that I love, then I’d better end the pain that they are feeling right now. Mom, Dad, I’m sorry but I have to do this. I love you both. I know you can’t hear me right now but I’ll make sure that you’ll feel it somehow. Goodbye.” Brooke said while crying. She picked up the scissors that she got from her bathroom and started tracing lines along her wrist. The tracing went deeper and harder. Brooke didn’t stop doing it until much of her blood started to ooze.

After seeing that she “accomplished” what she wanted to do, she then closed her eyes and started singing.

Here I am 

Feels like the walls are closing in 

Once again it's time to face it and be strong 

I wanna do the right thing now 

I know it's up to me somehow 

I've lost my way 

If I could take it all back I would now 

I never meant to let you all down 

And now I've got to try to turn it all around 

And figure out how to fix this 

I know there's a way so I promise 

I'm gonna clean up the mess I made 

Maybe It's not too late 

Maybe it's not too late oh 

So I'll take a stand 

Even though it's complicated 

If I can I wanna change the way I've made it 

I’ve gotta do the right thing now 

I know it's up to me some how 

I'll find my way 

If I could take it all back I would now 

I never meant to let you all down 

And now I've got to try to turn it all around 

And figure out how to fix this 

I know there's a way so I promise 

I'm gonna clean up the mess I made 

Maybe It's not too late 

I'm gonna find the strength 

To be the one who that holds it all together 

Show you that I'm sorry 

But I know that we can make it better 

If I could take it all back I would now 

I never meant to let you all down 

And now I've got to try to turn it all around 

And figure out how to fix this 

I know there's a way so I promise 

I'm gonna clean up the mess I made 

Maybe It's not too late 

I never meant to let you all down 

Now I've got to try to turn it all around 

And figure out how to fix this 

I know there's a way so I promise 

I'm gonna clean up this mess I made 

Maybe It's not too late 

Maybe it's not too late oh yeah

Lacey heard Brooke singing and so she went to Brooke’s room. She kept on knocking but Brooke won’t be able to open it up for her anymore. Lacey started to become hysterical and starting banging the door. Still, no response came from Brooke. Lacey called their helper and told her to get the keys to the door of Brooke’s room as fast as she could.

The helper returned after a few minutes with the keys of the whole house. Lacey tried different keys already but still, no key seemed to fit. Lacey is really getting nervous and she’s starting to get annoyed by her stupidity.

“Of all the possible moments to become this stupid, why now? I have to open this door!”

“Ma’am let me help you find the key.” The helper told Lacey.

“Thanks. Just do it quickly okay?”

“I’ll try my best Ma’am.” Lacey handed the keys to the helper and she started trying out the keys to the knob.

After trying out a couple of keys, the helper finally found the key that opened the door of Brooke’s room. Lacey rushed through the door and was shocked with what she saw.

“Brooke! Lily, call 911 now!”