it's been a weeks after what happened but the reminisce of yesterday was still vivid on her mind, how would she walk out the day irene didn't tried to even understand what she was trying to say but she also can't blame irene because the love she has for irene was too poisonous to not forget, Jennifer love's irene so much but that wasn't enough to convince herself that she didn't hurt to what irene said, but never in her life she will be angry to the woman she loved and to the woman she dedicated her loyalty on.
Jennifer looked everywhere, some distance ahead from her, the hall bent to the left, and from those hidden precincts glowed a nimbus of yellowish luminescence there she was crying and thinking how come she came to the point that even in a solitude by herself are hurting her. the enthusiasm for herself cannot profound the weakness ahead of her head when it comes to irene.
irene was her everything, never in her life she became serious. not to anyone but to irene. the love she have wasn't just platonic but it was real, it was there to her heart. she tried any ways to forget or just shurgged the idea of loving irene but how? how could she just forget the love who made her experience that even she was dirty as shit and she was useless as cordless jump rope. irene didn't made her feel that, except on that day but irene feelings was valid. she understand irene but what she can't understand is why.....why she thinks she wasn't become enough for irene.
is like an Queen with a forbidden love story with her servant, that's what she was feeling and she can't just get rid of that in just one snap. it's feel like a torture for her.
with irene, she can be who she really is. she don't need to hide. never in her life she felt happy not until she met irene, the night where irene THOUGHT she had sex with Jennifer that was also the night where everything happened in opposite way. irene thinks she had sex but she was too drunk to remember that Jennifer took her home after knowing her address because she passed out on the bar where Jennifer was working ofcourse as a stripper. after Jennifer finally took her home, jen did her responsibility to take care of her and before Jennifer leave she make sure everything was alright but before she can leave, Irene pulled her making her stumbled upon the top of irene which also the moment where irene opened her eyes and think she was having sex, sounds funny but that what really happened to the night where irene thinks she had sex with someone.
"are you okay" a hand from her shoulder making her flinched, there she go back to the reality and realized that she was standing on a mirror inside the bathroom for almost a half hour now.
swollen eyes, eyebags under eyes. new pimples and problematic face was evident to Jennifer face. she was exhausted to be true but that cannot profound the idea that she was keep striving for the better future of her family especially on her sister that needs her help.
she looked beside her there she saw her mother with an enlightened face, Jennifer frowned. a minute ago, her mother was in a verge of crying after she saw the hospital bill but as she was looking to her mother right now, she can't see that there's a problem happening to her.
"I'm okay" Jennifer immediately wiped her tears.
"i know you, don't try to to lie because i wouldn't buy that crap. you came from my uterus there's no way i wouldn't know your face when you are lying" Jennifer mother smirked but Jennifer just frowned even more.
"what the....uhm, what? i mean I'm okay ma. come on don't interrogate me. well i know how much you love interregation because it can remind you how you caught my dad having affair to your best friend, isn't?" then Jennifer smirked to her mother before her mother pet her head
"goodness you really came from me! i created some intelligent species who's still living nowadays"
"come on ma! why are you talking to me like this as if god sent a message for you that you'll gonna get out here.... in this freaking aquarium. come on our debt was half a million!"
