"i... I'm sorry imee, i... i don't know what to do" irene was completely devastated. they already roamed the half of the city but still they can't find hardy and for order to them to report that hardy was officially missing they need to wait 24hrs but every hour passing for them it made irene worried knowing that she was the reason why they can't find hardy.
imee slapped the truth to irene, that irene are now being cruel when it comes to hardy. a minute ago they had fight that woke irene sanity. yep, she was...she was being cruel and now as she felt really worried to her daughter it made her realized that she was being unfair. that all this years her daughter endured the pain she was giving and this night as she realized she needs to do right thing for all those wrong things she do to her daughter and the first thing she need to do is to find her daughter.
"how could be so cruel irene to your own daughter? she was nothing to do with her rapist father, well that rapist is the father of your child but still irene, STILL. she's your daughter" imee blurted, imee can't help but cry. she wanted to curse her sister for being unfair and cruel and she wanted to spang the head of irene in something hard object to make her realized that all this years her own daughter was trying her best to gain the attention of her own mother.
but irene was blind to know that, which imee was trying to pacify hardy for always asking questions about how her mother can't appreciate her.
"imee....i...know and... i'm sorry" imee scoffed.
"don't be sorry for me irene. be sorry to yourself because all this time you let yourself be blind. how can you digest the fact that hardy was always with me all the time! you barely know her irene because you never tried to know your own daughter, OWN FUCKING DAUGHTER IRENE. she came from you" imee wiped her tears.
"how will you diggest for your daily lives specially now that you realized that you barely know your own daughter"
"imee i swear. i'm---"
"you what irene? you tried to love her? well you are bullshit irene! you are. because you never tried, NEVER! you just being with her to cover the truth that you are blaming your own daughter for the mistake her father did! your pacifying your own self and you are trying to fool us with your crap which you did to your idiot friends. well me irene, you can't fool me. you will fool them but not me because you are bullshit and yet you are calling yourself MOTHER." then imee about to walk when she look again to irene.
"don't come with me. be here, as much you are tempted to find your daughter to ask for forgiveness i will never let you come with me to find her"
"but imee--"
"just fucking stay here irene, look everywhere and be suffer while asking yourself why you didn't love her and never tried loving her" then imee didn't wait irene to answer because she immediately walk out.
irene wants to come with imee because she was herself wanted to find her daughter all by herself but she don't want the situation get worst just because of her.
irene looked everywhere, the decorations that her daughter made was still there, she checked her wrist watch it's 10:00 in the evening already but still they didn't found hardy.
irene can't help but open the box in the table, there she saw the DIY cake made by her daughter with a help of imee as they written their name on the cake, irene cried again.
"I'm sorry" she muttered as she about to lift the box when suddenly a letter touched her knuckles and before the letter fell she already grabbed it
even the alarms will ring for enternity and the sounds of buzz will irritate me to death i know there's you will give me tranquility as the solitude hugs me with your arm, you are my guide as my ways came to nowhere. you are everything ma and i hope you knew how much i love you and how much i'm willing to be enough for you. this letter is the only way i could tell i love you because if i did this infront of you, i knew you will kick me out and didn't let me finish but using this letter, i want you to know that i understand why you treating me this way. i knew enough, enough to make me understand that never in our life will stop yourself from blaming me, hope you let me spend my birthday with you. i love you.
as the letter ended she can't help but fall and cried, she went to much. she was being cruel to her own... OWN DAUGHTER.
she didn't even let her daughter spend her day with her, Imee tell irene that what she was planning for a bday party for hardy are being dismissed as hardy talk to imee that she don't want any party but a simple birthday with her mama irene, which imee understand so she immediately agreed and help hardy to decorate as well to write the letter in such a poetic way which irene didn't even appreciate the moment she got home, but now as she was looking everywhere she saw how detail the decorations is. all of the pictures of hardy every year she's celebrating her birthday was in the hanging clip which Irene didn't even witnessed because she never tried to witness
irene can't help but burried her face in the couch where she was sitting and cried over and over again.
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Irene woke up from the kiss on her cheeks and giggling, she brushed her eyes as she felt something hugging her. she don't know when was the time she got sleep because she all remember is she was crying, sobbing and whaling like a baby while hugging the letter made by hardy.
"hardy?" she asked as she completely fixed her eyesight.
hardy didn't answer but kissed her cheeks again, irene completely shocked and confused but also happy that finally hardy was here, is imee found her? probably.
"oh jesus your here" then no any further irene hugged hardy really tight. this now or never. she immediately took the chance to kissed hardy on her forehead as a tear dripped down from her face but she didn't mind that, all her attention was fix to her glowing eyes.
"hardy i'm sorry.....i was coward and I'm being too much i'm---"
"ma there's no way i would be mad at you. i understand everything, fully understand and remember that your feelings are valid"
irene didn't expect this, she expected that hardy will be mad at her or ignore her but no, her daughter was hugging her right now with a smile on her face telling how much she forgave irene and understand her, irene was such a bless having her daughter hardy.
irene looked at her wrist watch, she's thankful time didn't reach midnight yet so she's still has chance to greet her daughter, irene cupped the face of hardy and kissed her forehead.
"no long poetic message like you and your mommy imee did to me because all i want to you say for you is i promised not to be cruel at you again and i will write to the stone that i'll never let you go again....happy birthday" then she kissed hardy forehead again but hardy pulled away which make irene confused but before irene asked her phone rang and it's her sister imee.
"oh it's your mommy. did she leave? aren't she found you? where'd she go?" she asked her daughter but hardy didn't answered so irene didn't have choice but to answered the phone call.
"imee why"
"it's hardy"
"why hardy? she's with me"
"your really a fucking bitch irene! hardy was dead...... she's here with me, with her dead body. the car accidentally bumped her"
irene dropped the phone as she looked at her daughter infront of her.
"har....dy?"
"it took me 14yrs to feel your love which you already giving now but why do i need to be gone, to be able for you to realized that all i need is your love. you can now sleep without blaming me but make sure that your conscience won't haunt you to death because i'll make sure that looking at this house will always remind you that never in your life you try to love me and you will never try it anymore especially not now that i'm dead"
the end
