Are you jealous?

chapter 18

"I honestly thought you won't make it here."

Changbin whined the moment he opened the door for the two best friends.

Though the two ignored him as they walked inside, no words exchanged, similar to how the whole ride here was.

They walked to the living room, where the rest of them were seated.
Hyunjin took a seat next to Jeongin, while Felix was next to Jisung  opposite from each other.

Felix quickly regrets his seat choice when he realises he'll have to lock eyes with his best friend.
But knowing it'll be suspicious if he changed now.

"Jin, how are you feeling?"

Asked Chan carefully, noticing how heavy the room got since the arrival of the two best friends.

"I'm......okay, I guess.

    I don't know, honestly."

He chuckled.

"Of course he'll be okay! Who won't be okay after spending a night with my dear sunshine twin! He probably got a taste of Lix's lovet poti- Ouch!"

Jisung was interrupted when Changbin spanked his head from behind.

"You talk too much!"

Hyunjin let out giggles at the scene in front of him.

"Yeah, you're right, Ji."

He looked over to his best friend, breath hitching when he found the guy already staring at him.

/Get it together, Hyunjin/

Minho stared between the two, eyebrows raising, before he stood up.

"Let's go for a smoke, Lix."

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The two stood in Seungmin's balcony, inhaling and exhaling the toxic material.

"We kissed."

Said Felix, breaking the silence.

"Yeah, I figured. Did you tell him?"

"He kissed me, hyung."

Minho turned to look at his friend.

"What?"

Felix let out a dry chuckle.

"I mean, I've taken him home with me too many times before when he was drunk.

    But I have no idea what's gotten into him last night."

"Have you thought that maybe there is a possibility he likes you too?"

This time around, Felix full on laughed. His body twisted as he tried his best not to burn himself with the cigarette.

"Funny, Leeknow.

     He was upset and drunk. He just wanted comfort and someone to take care of him. Someone to show him that he is worth it and that he can be loved.

   But as much as I want to be that person, I can't."

"He asked you, Lix. Knowing Hyunjin, I'm sure he wouldn't have asked you something like that if he didn't actually want it. He trusts you."

Felix took another hit of his cigarette,  a smile stretching on his face as he stared at the city in front of him.

"You know, that's what he said earlier, too."

"See-"

"But that doesn't mean he loves me. Just cause he trusts me with his body, it doesn't mean he trusts me with his soul.
It doesn't mean he trusts me with his heart.